r/plurality

hi! we are the winged sys, and have been collectively developing an app called TECSPA (the extremely customizable plural app). It is early development !! But we have lots of cute themes, journal, ampersand & pluralspace importer, front history, sharing your system with others(privacy options included), as well as pretty UI and the ability to import fonts and create custom fields. the link is https://tecspa.vercel.app/ ! and the desktop app(it has worse encryption and no accounts) is on our github https://github.com/wingedcoderr/tecspa !

Like the title says we are sick of the endo debate. We are starting to lose system friends because we won't pick a side. It's not fair to be forced to pick a side on something so complicated. We don't want to lose any of our friends. What are we supposed to? Because of course specific labels are trauma related like DID or osdd but if they aren't claiming specific trauma based disorders what's the harm?

We usually say we're a system of 4 because getting into the nitty-gritty of it isn't usually worth it. However, that number has been outdated for a while but the actual number is hard to calculate precisely due to having a few "Schrodinger's headmates". Usually we only count the host, Athena, Iris and Quinn. Here's where things get complicated:

- We discovered that Quinn was a subsystem due to her being two souls fused together. According to her exomemories, she is made up of a court jester and the fae Queen Titania.

- The Queen, as it turns out, is also a subsystem made up of Titania and Morrigana, who have a more classic DID presentation (the main system is non-disordered) and split off from each other due to childhood trauma in their exomemories completely unrelated to the rest of the system. This would mean that Quinn is a nesting doll of subsystems, lol.

- According to exomemories, the reason the Queen and Jester's souls got fused in the first place was due to a curse placed upon them by Oberon. Oberon seized the opportunity to stage a coup due to the Queen being mentally unstable and making poor decisions that led to the environmental collapse of her realm. Because she was too powerful to get rid of, he fused her soul with her jester's (also her lover), which gave her amnesia, and banished her. This didn't improve the situation, so all the fae died and only Oberon, who resorted to cannibalism, remained. Later, we managed to track him down and drag him over to our headspace to imprison him, but for his own safety he had to be put to be put in a coma of sorts in which he age regressed to his 6-8y/o self and relived his worst childhood trauma in the form of unending nightmares. We know this because the fucker stole front anytime we fell asleep and would speak irl to ask for reassurance. So he became a headmate against our will. He's a really bad person who's done some really icky stuff in his previous life so we really don't like counting him as a headmate.

- Oberon's child self is so different from his adult self that they might as well be different people. Would this make Oberon a subsystem?

- We also discovered a fragment, Agony, who steals front anytime the host is experiencing terrible despair and snuffs out Iris and Athena, who temporarily die (??????) and are unable to do their job to maintain system wellbeing. However, it's so underdeveloped as a full-fledged headmate and is so actively dangerous to the system that we're unsure if we should include it in the headcount. Our current theory is that Agony is a corrupted inner child that is only capable of experiencing despair for now.

- Iris once had a BPD split so bad that she literally fought her own body, alien hand syndrome style, as if two wills were competing for control. Wtf was that about? How does that affect the headcount?

So yeah, our headcount may range from approximately 4 and ¾ all the way up to.... 10?? Maybe more depending on how you count Quinn's layered subsystems. It's fuckin crazy, y'all, send help 💀💀

Obligatory disclaimer that we're in therapy and none of this impacts our day-to-day life and is not an active issue, it's just weird.