r/radicalmentalhealth

Hello a few months ago I went to a mental hospital for postpartum psychosis. I was diagnosed with acute psychosis due to a side effect after trying out adhd pills.

During my first night I was screaming to let me go home. The nurses warned me if I didn't stop I would be locked in solitary and given a shot in my butt to calm down or knock me out. I kept screaming to be released so they had 5-6 nurses come try to get me. I put up a good fight, not fighting them literally but running away, pulling my arms when they caught me etc.

Here's where I question myself. When the doctor came in to give me a shot, he was no nonsense and he could see I was giving the other nurses a hard time. He pinned me down to the floor, had a knee pushed on my back, stepped on my head and put my hands on my head, and ripped off my bracelet and even some of my hair while grabbing the bracelet. All the pieces went flying everywhere all over the room scattered. I was screaming at the nurses that I have asthma and I couldn't breathe. I literally felt like George Floyd in that moment. Pinned down, asthma wheezing, screaming for help and the nurses just watch.

The next day, the doctor came in to work with a cake for the nurses.. ​like a reward. They also replaced the cameras during my stay. But solitary has no cameras where this took place.

I've told my boyfriend about it and he tells me while it was wrong, what evidence do I have. Did I break a bone or need surgery. I say no but its mental. Mental hospitals have a history of getting away with abuse. I was never a danger to myself or others I never hurt anyone but I was extremely loud and did name calling. I just feel like specifically that doctor should not get away with this. So am I over reacting does this type of thing happen everyday and its normal or am I right to question this doctors authority? Is it even worth going to court?