r/trans_sapphic

I am 60 and grew up in the 70s and 80s. As a child, I had curly hair, blue eyes, and long eyelashes, often mistaken for a girl, especially by women who praised my appearance and wished they had my hair and eyelashes. At 11, staying at a friend's house, his mom bent down to greet me without a bra under her shirt. I saw her breasts, and I thought I couldn't wait to have breasts too. I was confused growing up due to limited information about being trans. In the 90s, I got married. The internet made it easy to look up information about being trans. My wife found my internet history, and we got divorced.

I am now married to my wonderful wife, and we have an awesome daughter. I have always been attached to women but at the same time wanted to be a woman. I spent years of wanting this feeling to go away. Now, at 60 my egg has cracked. I am a trans woman.

For context, I have had SRS 2 years ago and a revision about a year ago. I wasn't rich enough for an operation halfway around the world and likely was not going to be for years/a decade. I didn't wait after all and got it locally, government)covered.

It is safe to say I regret it. I went wrong and my revision could not save it. Every time I take a picture or a video of the area I want to scream and dread fills me. It just looks so awful, because there obviously is swelling going on that isn't supposed to be there. So, I don't want anyone to interact with it ever, even if it is functionally okay.

Do you think a girl I'm interested in and that is interested in me, would still give me a chance if sex would be without penetration or his face down there, ever in our relationship?

Am I bisexual or pansexual?

What is my sexuality? I need help figuring it out. \\\[F 22\\\] I'm 80 percent attracted to women and 20 percent attracted to men I'm mostly attracted to women and feminity in men and women. but would date all genders. What is this called? Very rarely trans and non binary people