Idk something creeps me out

Look, a while back I made a post that was basically just me being sad because my favorite fan-game "Answered Prayers" was made by someone who said they wanted to draw…something I won't say, and when people got mad at me for my decision, I let my anger get the best of me to the point where I just deleted the whole post.
If you're unaware, Answered Prayers was a very important game to me because it was the first fan-game I ever played and it basically introduced me to my whole online presence, but seeing it get removed from the YNO Project hurt me more than I realized. While I'm still saddened by what happened and by losing access to a game I loved, I've come to realize that disliking someone’s actions doesn’t automatically make them an evil person. I just wanted to make this as an apology for lashing out at everyone involved. Even though I no longer like Answered Prayers because of what happened, I have to admit it was still very important for me...
I hope you're all okay, and have a good July 04th...

I was always under the assumption that she was around 18-20 given the fact she lives alone.

Then I read an interview where kikiyama referred to her as “the child?”, however, for anyone reading this who doesn’t know, the interview it came from was actually a parody interview! i was surprised too, many people still think that interview is legitimate, where kikiyama forgets his own main character lol.

Okay, back to the topic. She does look very childlike, but i feel like the game would make more sense if she were an agoraphobic/depressed young adult. I have wondered if perhaps her design was actually the self insert of kikiyama and perhaps she (assuming kikiyama is female) designed madotsuki off of herself.

The reason i think this is plausible is because Yume Nikki appears to be a very personal project. There are too many recurrent random themes that come up that seem personal (like the Aztec imagery, it would make a lot of sense if Kikiyama had a south american heritage). This would be partly why the game is so illusive and makes not too much sense to us. It was meant more for Kikiyama themself. This would also make Kikiyama’s development of Yume Nilki ceasing after becoming popular, make sense.

This is just a little theory, i am probably wrong lol