u/-Curious-Pineapple-

I feel so alone everyday. I have friends ngl but none of them will choose me first or even second or third. They all have partners if not that they have each other and i feel like a back up friend in every friendship i am in now. I just hurts to see my friends talking about something they didn't invite me to or i see their stories and see they are literally 5 mins from my house but they didn't call or text. I just want to know does it get better? Will i ever make friends that will choose me to be their best friend who would tell me everything and not make me feel judge or unwanted. I am really tired of feel like a imposter in my own life and friendship. I hope it gets better casue i have lost so many friendship that i thought would be lifelong i am very done with giving everything and receiving nothing, no care, no love, no understanding. Man, i just wanna be seen.

I am with family right now and my father, grandfather and uncle are drinking. I am 21 female and they got breezers too it was more than enough for everyone and the men were drinking whiskey and they offered a breezer to me and i said yes and omg the comments started "women these days are so forward", "woahhh" and my mom was giving me looks. I drank one breezer and there were 4 left i asked if should i open the 2nd one too cause i wanna drink. I rarely drink too and i saw given so much looks. I made a fair point of breezer having only 4% of alcohol and my dad is drinking whiskey with 45% and i got yelled at :)

Alcohol is bad for everyone, it doesn't care about your gender.

I just turned 21 and i live with my parents. Graduate college and i saw a friend of mine moving to Australia and a few friends of mine moving here and there living their lifes. I have only a few friends and not very close with everyone so i can't just ask people about what they feel while moving and all but you guys can.

Tell me is it really good moving away and when with my family i pay rent with my mental health and i am look for a job outside my city asap. But again i am not sure what to do tell me should i move to another country or city?