u/2h3adedDog

I’m about to turn 32, and I am so very grateful for my life, to say the least.

I didn’t grow up easy (in and out of foster care ect)

But I feel like I wasted my 20s on shit relationships.

From the abuse, to being cheated on, to having my ex get me on crack and fentanyl.. (three years clean now, hooray!!) and finally almost dying from ectopic pregnancy in January of 25, at 5 months pregnant (I didn’t know)
I am so so very happy in my current relationship, he treats me so well.
I have this overwhelming feeling of doom. I have mad abandonment issues.
I am finally in a good place in my relationships, all around but especially with my dude. I know I have mental illness in more ways than one.

I regret allowing so many humans to take from me when I had nothing to give. I’m scared it’s stunting me from moving forward and I’m scared I’m going to push my boyfriend away.

Advice or insight would be cool but in all reality I just needed to get this off my chest.