u/3ddieV3nder77

I should of stayed in bed

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Warning may contain triggers of suicidal ideations:

This is not fair

Need to umask the madman within

It's way past time to begin

He's in control 

Lost in a maze 

Such a crazy identity 

Why must he do this?

To you, to me??

It's so selfish 

An eagle with an ego

That flies so high

Where are the pieces 

To the puzzles of my mind?

Put the muzzle on the guy

Who's way behind in life 

In reason

Please help him find the answers 

This addiction is a cancer

I'm dying on rewind

Sitting in an empty nest

There is no love today

You are my only quest

Don't even think about tomorrow 

Because yesterday is just regret

Will there be another day

Ending with a beautiful sunset?

Broken promises 

Closed eyed screams

Louder than the Stellar Jays

These thoughts are in my chest 

Dreams that I can't forget 

She is so scared

It's difficult to digest 

Another clue that I did not get

I try to breathe 

I just digress 

Life is a broken mirror

Nothing more

So much less

I am not right 

What is left?

My forgotten love was a guest

No more trust

What else can't be kept?

Trying to look forward 

Through a ripped up tye dyed dress 

Running from the Angels 

Walking away from this broken life

Blindfolded boxcar blues

Staring at a butcher's knife

I cannot stress this enough

Where the fuck is my life?

Staring at strobe light stripes

Goodness me I miss my wife

It's all my fault

Goodbye to my only life

Laughing children on the playground 

Put me on a bed of ice

You keep haunting me

Nightmares and stalking dreams

Now that I'm in the ground 

No one can hear me scream

Nothing as it used to be

Nothing's left for me to see

Hanging from an unmarked tree

Readings at my funeral 

Close the book no more to read

Sorry that I failed the test

This much is true 

Finally I am set free

God it feels so damn good

Close the curtains on the set

Feels good to know you're free

This is for your sanity

In the ground, a field of green

Now that I am laid to rest

Feels good to be set free

(This is a work of fiction and not about anyone real)

 

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Warning may contain triggers of suicidal ideations:

This is not fair

Need to umask the madman within

It's way past time to begin

He's in control 

Lost in a maze 

Such a crazy identity 

Why must he do this?

To you, to me??

It's so selfish 

An eagle with an ego

That flies so high

Where are the pieces 

To the puzzles of my mind?

Put the muzzle on the guy

Who's way behind in life 

In reason

Please help him find the answers 

This addiction is a cancer

I'm dying on rewind

Sitting in an empty nest

There is no love today

You are my only quest

Don't even think about tomorrow 

Because yesterday is just regret

Will there be another day

Ending with a beautiful sunset?

Broken promises 

Closed eyed screams

Louder than the Stellar Jays

These thoughts are in my chest 

Dreams that I can't forget 

She is so scared

It's difficult to digest 

Another clue that I did not get

I try to breathe 

I just digress 

Life is a broken mirror

Nothing more

So much less

I am not right 

What is left?

My forgotten love was a guest

No more trust

What else can't be kept?

Trying to look forward 

Through a ripped up tye dyed dress 

Running from the Angels 

Walking away from this broken life

Blindfolded boxcar blues

Staring at a butcher's knife

I cannot stress this enough

Where the fuck is my life?

Staring at strobe light stripes

Goodness me I miss my wife

It's all my fault

Goodbye to my only life

Laughing children on the playground 

Put me on a bed of ice

You keep haunting me

Nightmares and stalking dreams

Now that I'm in the ground 

No one can hear me scream

Nothing as it used to be

Nothing's left for me to see

Hanging from an unmarked tree

Readings at my funeral 

Close the book no more to read

Sorry that I failed the test

This much is true 

Finally I am set free

God it feels so damn good

Close the curtains on the set

Feels good to know you're free

This is for your sanity

In the ground, a field of green

Now that I am laid to rest

Feels good to be set free

(This is a work of fiction and not about anyone real)

 

I'm bringing you all of my love

All of my dreams 

All of my support 

All of my cuddles to you 

I will follow you on your journey 

I will take care of you always 

I will listen to your concerns 

I choose you forever and ever

I like how clever you are 

I like how creative you are 

I like how gorgeous you are 

I love how adventurous you are 

You are one in a zillion 

You are more than a woman to me

You are so very awesome 

You rescued me and nurture me

I want to run my fingers through your hair 

I want to walk with you to the park

I want to improve my communication with you 

I will see this through and through 

You are my atmosphere 

You give me a deep desire 

I will shower my love all over you

I will gladly stand next to your fire

You are the calm in my crazy days 

You are the sun growing my garden 

You are the focus of my life

Id be frickin ecstatic if you'd be my wife

I don't want you to ever be lonely 

I don't want you to ever go hungry 

I will keep my emotions in check 

I'll keep you safe and warm

Id love if you'd sing to me

Id love if you put your head on my chest 

Id love if you walked through the door

Everyday I crave you more and more 

Under the sacred sun

I want to know the new you

Curiously close

Resting my head

On your immaculate coast

I've transformed into a tall tree

Growing in the Spring of now

Glowing for your gorgeous face

Distant from the other trees

I can stretch my branches out

The fresh wind caresses my spirit

Your ocean of radiance sparkles

The moonlight dances on my leaves

I don't have eyes but I can see you

Can you feel my curiosity?

Your ambiguous aura keeps me guessing

Feed on my zestful fruit

In the sublime shade I wave

Welcoming you to take root

I adore your emotional hues

I loved you then and I love you now

Show me your vulnerable truth

I'll whisper secrets just for you

I will create our unique sculptures

Kiss your cute nose

Dye your huggable hair

Paint your tantalizing toes

Gaze into your amber eyes

Im undoing my disguise

Under the sacred sun

I want to know the new you

Curiously close 

Resting my head 

On your immaculate coast 

I've transformed into a tall tree

Growing in the Spring of now

Glowing for your gorgeous face

Distant from the other trees

I can stretch my branches out

The fresh wind caresses my spirit 

Your ocean of radiance sparkles 

The moonlight dances on my leaves

I don't have eyes but I can see you

Can you feel my curiosity?

Your ambiguous aura keeps me guessing 

Feed on my zestful fruit

In the sublime shade I wave

Welcoming you to take root

I adore your emotional hues

I loved you then and I love you now

Show me your vulnerable truth 

I'll whisper secrets just for you 

I will create our unique sculptures 

Kiss your cute nose 

Dye your huggable hair

Paint your tantalizing toes 

Gaze into your amber eyes

I'm here unmasking my disguise

Under the sacred sun

I want to know the new you

Curiously close

Resting my head

On your immaculate coast

I've transformed into a tall tree

Growing in the Spring of now

Glowing for your gorgeous face

Distant from the other trees

I can stretch my branches out

The fresh wind caresses my spirit

Your ocean of radiance sparkles

The moonlight dances on my leaves

I don't have eyes but I can see you

Can you feel my curiosity?

Your ambiguous aura keeps me guessing

Feed on my zestful fruit

In the sublime shade I wave

Welcoming you to take root

I adore your emotional hues

I loved you then and I love you now

Show me your vulnerable truth

I'll whisper secrets just for you

I will create our unique sculptures

Kiss your cute nose

Dye your huggable hair

Paint your tantalizing toes

Gaze into your amber eyes

I'm here unmasking my disguise

This is the atmosphere of love

Powerful pulsars of emotions emanate

Waves upon, cosmic waves, crashing waves on the rocks, splashing to the cosmos

A quasar of dragonflies, brilliant lights, and captivating colors swirl in his soul

A stellar sea of overflowing vulnerability, the author has sensitive identities

The secret of his heart has always been in her chest of drawers, a zenith of feelings are folded, then unfolded

Love is the most mysterious, this magical element of the universe

He feels her, deep inside, her scent is on the tip of his nose, yet he can’t capture it

Her face is behind his eyes, every image and look that’s she’s had over the years, of her play like an animated collage

The opening credits of an epic film, the closing credits of the film, synchronized, flashes of fabulous feelings, translucent silhouettes twirl

It’s as if he can almost reach out and touch her, his tongue quivers as his mouth slowly opens, recalling her taste

At this point, absolutely struggling to catch his breath, like being pulled under water and affectionately drowning

Cumulonimbus clouds, massive amounts of rain descending, scarlet jellyfish sprites ascending

Overwhelming discharges, hours of thundershowers, windswept fondness

A glimpse of the tie dyed tapestry on the ceiling, as if it’s the last image that he’ll ever see, after a few minutes he is revived

So alive

Orbits of intoxication, bursting a nova

Good morning my love, may you have a good day. 🌞

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Love light, love light

Shining during the rainiest of days

Shining even brighter through the darkest of nights

Love light, love light

Is God’s light

God’s light, giving you abundant strength

Holy light, there to help you fight

As my light is always here for you

Shed light, shedding light

Directly onto you, always around you

In you, absorbed and adored

From deep within, overflowing to the brim

Soft skin on soft skin

Two loving hearts beating in unison

Two flames, one soul

For all of eternity, in union

Making us whole

Love light, love light

Shining during the rainiest of days

Shining even brighter through the darkest of nights

Love light, love light

Is God’s light

God’s light, giving you abundant strength

Holy light, there to help you fight

As my light is always here for you

Shed light, shedding light

Directly onto you, always around you

In you, absorbed and adored

From deep within, overflowing to the brim

Soft skin on soft skin

Two loving hearts beating in unison

Two flames, one soul

For all of eternity, in union

Making us whole

12/23/2023

For you my dear:

We are born, then immediately thrown into this wild world

Such a busy bustling city, full of concrete dreams and honking horns that scream

Give me snow capped mountains, surrounded by millions of luscious green trees

In Mother Nature is the only place I want to be

A natural home in the forest, we make our family

Under the vast, pastel blue sky is our natural roof

Inside of your heart and mine resides the perfect truth

Help me paint our beautiful, everlasting fantastic future

In real life, let’s leave behind these silly phones and computers

I want to gaze at your heart melting face all day long

It’s in your precious eyes, where I write our spectacular songs

In the fields, free and naked we shall lay

Nothing but our undying love shall be on display

Near the ocean we can play, dancing at night and singing during the day

In the sand, on a blanket, it’s hot, yet incredibly pleasant

Being next to you is the absolute best present

As the sun slides across your glistening arms, our desires building, full of charms

My familiar fingers trace their way down your velvet neck

Slowly descending to your chest, drawing circles around your mellow breasts

Gently touching the sensual curves of beckoning hips

Magnets connecting, pressing together our aching lips

Tasting you, oh so sweet, succulent as a juicy peach

Making love, over and over again, under the stars on our beach

Igniting powerful explosions that came, furnishing and bonding our twin flames

How young are you?

How old am I?

Let's count the rings around my eyes

How smart are you?

How dumb am I?

Don't count any of my advice

Oh, meet me any place or anywhere or anytime

Now I don't care, meet me tonight

If you will dare, I might dare

Call me on Thursday, if you will

Or call me on Wednesday, better still

Ain't lost yet, so I gotta be a winner

Fingernails and a cigarette's a lousy dinner

Young, are you? Ooh-ooh-ooh

Come on

Meet me any place or anywhere or anytime

Now, I don't care, meet me tonight

If you will dare, I will dare

Meet me any place or anywhere or anytime

Now, I don't care, meet me tonight

If you will dare, I will dare

How young are you?

How old am I?

Let's count the rings around my eyes

How smart are you?

How smart are you?

How dumb am I?

Dumb am I?

Meet me any place or anywhere or anytime

Now I don't care, meet me tonight

If you will dare, I will dare

Meet me any place or anywhere or anytime

Now I don't care, meet me tonight

If you will dare, I will dare

❤️💕

not awkward at all ..

I am going to just throw this out there. Id really love it if you'd like to join me and visit the locations that are highlights of the upper PNW? I would come pick you up and we could hit every espresso shack on the coast. Aberdeen, Olympia and Forks...

I am enjoying this trip with the dog, it's incredible. Everywhere that I go, all I think about is how you'd appreciate all of these magic little towns. It would be complete if you were here, and we were holding hands during the day and in each other's arms at night. I really just want to see your face and hear about your adventures. I am still very much in love with you!

Message me if you are at least tempted.

What I know now, I wish that I knew then

I should have listened

I should have known

She was right about everything

I should have listened to her

I should have trusted her

I realize this now

I should have listened

I should have known

If I had listened it would of helped me grow

I know now what I did not believe then

I trust her

She sees and knows what was wrong

What needed to be worked on

Who I was and my weaknesses

I hate holding onto this deep regret

I should of listened

I was stubborn

I was foolish

I will listen attentively always in the future

I will always pay close attention to every detail

I trust her with all of my heart

I trust her with all of my soul

I will listen

I will do

I will follow through

This much is true

This is forever

I love you