u/3ddieV3nder77

Darlin'! Hi there long lost love. How are you doing and feeling? I worry about you every day and every night, like it hurts to think that I picture you crying all alone. At times I hear you and feel you. Twin flame suffering.

I can't do anything to help you, I so badly want to comfort you, and ease your pain somehow. it's literally killing me. It's all my fault too. After 40 months I feel like I've kept us apart. I'm so sorry.

I feel sick to my stomach not knowing how your day was...did you drink enough water? Did you eat enough food? Are you able to sleep? I'd come running to you if you contacted me.

We've been going on our own paths now for what feels like a lifetime. Why does it feel so hard? There is nobody anywhere else like you, the feelings and emotions that I experience are all for you.

If by chance you come across this, know that I miss you like a desert misses water. I miss your voice, your face, your soft hands. I miss everything about you. You my love. I'm never giving up on us.

Take this letter and read it alone

Tear down those crumbling walls

We're putting new bricks along

Follow the constellation ahead

Floating on a sea of stars

Goodbye my demonic dancer

The answer is harmonic keytones

Dissolving disturbing chains

Sunshine flows in our veins

I want to break free

I want to give you my light

I want your life to make sense

We are living in a fractal

Reflecting particles is practical

One minute your here

Then I'm there

Pie squared in the Renaissance faire

Shedding skin with a new beginning

Learning from broken pieces

I kiss the glue

And stick it to you

I fed and have been reborn

Sleeping under a irredentist stone

Growing new tentacles

Where old ones were torn from

Swimming to fresh reefs

Take these beautiful bubbles

Growing new leaves

The metamorphosis takes hold

Of necessary osmosis

Everything flows where needed

Almost time to plant new seeds

So many new colors this year

All of that fear has moved on

Don't know where I'm going

Optimism leads the way

The tears are gone

Searching foR You, searching for Me

8/13/26

What is love?

What is love, love?

What is love?

But I’ll always love you

What is a heart without warmth?

What is a heart without love?

What are you dreaming tonight?

Where are the stars tonight?

Why is the air so tight?

Looking for you my darling

Looking for you to save my life

Searching for relief

I'm sorry for such belief

If only I could delete the scars

Giving you back the love you long for

Giving you back smiles in the sky

Who am I but a fool and a friend ?

Who are you but a lost angel in light?

I'd give anything

You are my everything

Helping you to grow back your wings

Singing my heart out to you

Bringing back breath in your eyes

Sewing existence back into your life

I'd do it all again just to spend one day with you

I'd die all over again to be true

I'd love everyday for you

What is love without you

What is a heart to break

Just for the sake of loving you

You are are my angel in dark times

You are the light in the night

You are love

What is love, without you here?

Love, what is love?

Love

Without you

You

Without you

You

Without you

You you you you

Just one kiss before we miss

As our hearts shine on forever

My dear sweetheart

Bringing the withe out of the blue

Singing my heart out for you

M

My deaR

Love is.....

Love sure is silly, innit? Oh, the games that we will play, the lengths that we are willing to travel. As time careens and screams through the sky and into the roaring ocean. We ache to taste their savory neck again. You were here, right next to me, not long ago, yet a really long time ago. The tears that continue to fall are calling you constantly. The subtle sounds that you make, gentle moaning, to heightened reverberations of extreme pleasure.

The pains of separation are gut wrenching waves of sorrow that penetrate deeper than a sword can. Memories are stamped and engraved in my soul. Your name is written in rainbow spray paint, tagged on my torso, visible on my face.

Your essence is elemental, a part of me, like baby hair on the back of my neck. I carry you around with me everywhere that I wander. I transmit this enchanted tenderness to you, through words and clairvoyance. Your presence is captivating, I am enveloped in your shimmering charm.

In the chilly, damp sand. Her memories linger, delicately. I’m good at helplessly hoping. Tears surf on waves of misery. Her clothes lay vacant in my favorite drawer. October daytime sketches my favorite eyes. Her face carefully written in the clear azul skies. Her cheeks are superb clouds. Just out of my meek reach. The chairs are disarranged like missing puzzle pieces of intimacy. There, in the quiet bathroom mirror. Her lips whisper lyrics to our treasured songs. I faithfully listen on repeat, all day long.

I sit semi comfortably in this velvet recliner, pondering the path that leads back to you. I shall walk in your shadows, as I cuddle and kiss your familiar silhouette. I water several new tropical house plants when needed, I’d like to introduce you to them soon. The stove is perfectly clean, awaiting the upcoming fancy meal that will be prepared for you. I will pleasantly feed you with my fingers, elegantly.

The door is propped, fully open. The afternoon sunshine crawls towards me on the spotless floor. I guide you through the spectacular sunbeams, to my glistening lips that await you. Outstretch your heart, tumble towards my patient heartbeat. Revolve in my reflections, as I synthesize our perfected love potion. Just one drop, then our reconciliation will materialize. It will allow our vigorous bond in this castle to bedazzle and radiate until the end of time. Meet me halfway, my dear.

🪷

Goodbye stranger it's been nice, Hope you find your paradise ❤️

6/16/2026

I was on the beach

And jumped into the fire

Never even knew my own mind

All of the nights I heard her cry

I traveled thousands of miles

When I picked up and tried

My wings were clipped

Unable to fly

You were crazy

I was crazier with time

Watching the long hand spin

Everyday I miss my girl

Caught in a cumulonimbus cloud

All of my issues unfurled

Then I broke wide open

Turning inside out

Rowing against in the wind

Haunted in the songs we sing

Behind me were flashing blue lights

Fights over onto the line

Locked inside a concrete cage

Life was quite unkind

Where were you

What was I to do?

After the years of rain

A family became unglued

Then I bathed in starlit sand

Knowing that I can and will

Move with the shifting land

Silver blood flows

Throughout arms legs and hands

Tambourines and sitars played

I would have died

If I stayed that way

Soon acquired a Ketamine crutch

Walking much straighter

Getting in touch with myself

Needing to create a new mold

Living that way certainly got old

In the past I always turned right

Eventually swirved left

Sanity needs to be kept

The chess game still plays

As the table is set

Caught in a stalemate

To this very day

Only God knows our fate

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I was on the beach

And jumped into the fire

Never even knew my own mind

All of the nights I heard her cry

I traveled thousands of miles

When I picked up and tried

My wings were clipped

Unable to fly

You were crazy

I was crazier with time

Watching the long hand spin

Everyday I miss my girl

Caught in a cumulonimbus cloud

All of my issues unfurled

Then I broke wide open

Turning inside out

Rowing against in the wind

Haunted in the songs we sing

Behind me were flashing blue lights

Fights over onto the line

Locked inside a concrete cage

Life was quite unkind

Where were you

What was I to do?

After the years of rain

A family became unglued

Then I bathed in starlit sand

Knowing that I can and will

Move with the shifting land

Silver blood flows

Throughout arms legs and hands

Tambourines and sitars played

I would have died

If I stayed that way

Soon acquired a Ketamine crutch

Walking much straighter

Getting in touch with myself

Needing to create a new mold

Living that way certainly got old

In the past I always turned right

Eventually swirved left

Sanity needs to be kept

The chess game still plays

As the table is set

Caught in a stalemate

To this very day

Only God knows our fate

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