Has anyone else been diagnosed with a brain tumor suspected to be caused by your T shots?
In 2023(after 11 years on T) I was diagnosed with a brain meningioma, a hormonally sensitive tumor, in which certain hormone medications also increase growth risk.
Something doesn't feel right about this meeting. You know you can just talk to me and be honest about it. I'm not going to judge you.
across my phone
my fingers, careless... clumsy.
Moving faster
than my brain, computing....words
Their meaning
from my heart, crafted... honestly
Never sent
out of fear, confusion... confusion
So this is the unsent...
Is something there or am I wrong? I need to know before the time comes. I need to know the real reason behind why I'm back all of the sudden. Why are you sharing things with me that you know I'm passionate about? Things that you know I would really like? Why is it closer than before? I'm not complaining, I just want clarity and communication. Honesty.
You know that is what I will always give you.
with you against my chest, yet you're not even close. A photograph is all I have for now until you're near. My hand tracing galaxies across your back as I'm intoxicated by the scent of your hair. Just existing... breathing...
to feel such a strong connection to someone you have never met in person? the conversations we had, both written and vocal, nothing out of the ordinary or inappropriate, but I feel a deep connection and sense you feel it too but are holding back out of fear. Why are we such complex creatures? I wish you would have just been honest with me. I know there's a lot going on in your life, but you know I can help carry it for you if you'd let me. I'm not asking for anything you can't or don't want to do, just asking you to let me help lighten the load.
I miss you. I miss our connection. I miss when we would just laugh at nothing.