u/4StarDB

So I've been on HRT for 8 months and things are going nicely, i got some good growth in the breast department.

So the thing i wanna ask is the title

I squeezed my breasts, not super hard but pretty firmly and some clear discharge came out from my nipples. Google says it can be normal with all the circumstances that I have going on, but I wanna make sure things are fine.

I'll probably also delete this post later on because it is somewhat embarrassing

I've been wondering if i might be ace for a while, i decided to take 2 tests, both are like "maybe, idk"

I don't wanna have to think about this super deeply because i could take it or leave it, or just get asked some questions by people who know more about asexuality than me

For the things i've seen might be important:

-Less important, but context, i'm a trans woman and generally like anyone sufficiently woman shaped
-On a related not, i'm very sure i'm not aromatic
-Not sex repulsed, not particularly interested either
-I masturbate, but it's something i don't like having to do and i wanted HRT to lower my libido which it did and i like it that way, but i also don't hate the process of masturbation
-I haven't been in a relationship yet but i feel like if a partner wanted to have sex i'd do it and probably enjoy it, but i'm fine without it
-Involving another person just feels like unnecessary pressure
-I like women, in fact i reeeeeeally like women, but idk if that feeling when i see a woman i really like is necessarily sexual or not, i'd say it isn't? Like they just take away my breath and i get real flustered by i don't fantasize about anything, really. Dancing maybe? I don't even dance on my own it just seems romantic.

I just don't have the mental capacity to figure this out. Ask me anything that'd help confirm it further and just assign me asexual if you like it at this point.
Yes i know i need to decide for myself but just play along whatever i am won't actually change i'll just have a label for it and maybe discover i was wrong if we didn't get me right

Feel free to remove this, i fully leave it up to mod discretion and won't complain if this post gets nuked, i just really need to vent and do something other than being on reddit for a while after this and this feels like the only available safe space to do it

Idk if it's just the whiplash of such an obviously woke and gay piece of media feeling like it's being overtaken by bigots and chuds and the like but i'm just so tired...

There are so many signs pointing to Tralsei being true and there's never evidence compelling enough, there's never evidence numerous enough, there's never evidence that's enough. Nothing is ever enough, but i just saw a theory that Kris is a girl held together with the adhesive strength of cooking oil and people are so fucking ready to just accept it...

I'm genuinely at a point where i think fandoms should be gatekept, which is a dumb thing to do but the community has just been getting more and more ass and i don't know what's fucking happening. There are no straight couples in the multiple timelines and realities of UT/DR, any politics that have been put in the game are overtly left-wing and promote love and freedom so why? Why the fuck are we here? Why the fuck are we at a point where there's discourse about the discourse of the discourse over whether or not an obviously trans coded character in the woke ass fully automated luxury gay space communism game could possibly be trans? Because that's just fucking crazy talk. There's no way... Toby "i am very woke" Fox wouldn't make his game w-w-woke??? Would he? My based yurigem MAGArune? No, Toby "woke and gay" Fox would never!

I'm just rambling at this point, this was never meant to be coherent so i'll just stop and fuck off to play Overwatch or something and knowing myself come back in 10 minutes instead of taking a proper break from reddit.

It just sucks so fucking much. I wanna participate, look at discussions and be a part of the community, but i don't feel welcome because the average Deltarune fandom participant seems to be a 57 year old Christian nationalist father of 3 adult children all from different mothers with none of them talking to him for a good reason.

This being the subreddit for the topic it of course pertains to Tralsei

So now we know that shadow crystals are unfulfilled dreams crystalized into a solid object, they hold a pretty big amount of power with the implication that they might be solid shards of determination.

So i just got this thought, what if shadow crystals give useless power because the dreams are unfulfilled and they can't truly help anyone fulfill their dreams and can't grant any shadow crystal holder their freedom. But the pure crystal has been teased for years, what if it's just dreams, specifically ones yet to be fulfilled, what if the pure crystals just grants you a wish.

What if this wish can be used to break the prophecy. For plot reasons, like lighteners can't use the crystals so Ralsei has to make a wish but since freedom and dreams are the name of the game, it doesn't work until they are free from burdens, free from this mask, this role constructed for them by circumstance and Ralsei has to talk about a desire to be a princess, of course it wouldn't cross her mind to actually the pure crystal for that unless it's somehow furthers the goal of saving the world, but she gets through it, wish is made, prophecy may be broken and world is looking very savable.

Susie would immediately bring it up, like the first moment she gets. She would reassure Ralsei that she has friends who care about her a lot and ask if she wanted to be treated like a girl (pronouns question without saying the word pronouns cuz it may be a bit tacky). Basically as soon as Susie learns of the egg she obliterates the shell.

This i think also works a lot better over Ralsei magically turning into a girl and having that be the linchpin of the prophecy so the rest falls like dominoes.

I just feel like that the idea of freedom has to play some role in Ralsei's progression and the freedom bosses with the crystalized determination/dream fragments as a reward with the ominous purified version of them feels like the puzzle pieces are falling into place. I might just also need to sleep. This is not an airtight theory, but i wanna get it out there.