u/64lilwhitethings

Image 1 — type me based on things that have happened in my dreams lately!!
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type me based on things that have happened in my dreams lately!!

this is just for fun i’m already pretty confident in my mbti type! also this is wordy as hell i cannot be concise or ill die i think

i used to basically never have dreams (or at least ones that i remembered) but now i have one basically every night. i have a weak mind’s eye (aphantasia? idk i don’t know what’s “normal” to visualize…i just know, like thoughts without sounds or pictures 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️) so i have trouble describing my dreams. they aren’t exactly visual, same as my thoughts, but in the dream i don’t feel blind or anything. trying to remember them is sort of like those old AI pictures and videos where everything looks like something but you can’t figure out what and things morph into each other, but within the logic of the dream it tracks and i am not distressed by the medium the dream is being experienced in.

all of that to say i am like rlly bad at describing dreams 😭

  1. this one is reoccurring, but i hadn’t gotten one in a while until a couple weeks ago! dreams where i begin ripping out my teeth. in the dreams i am aware that im twenty years old and am not going to lose any more teeth (hopefully) but in the dreams i reach into my mouth and wiggle a tooth that is slightly loose, but not really on the verge of falling out on its own yk a lot of the time people in the dream comment that it could’ve been saved probably lol. i rip the tooth out. i don’t know why as a kid i always thought it was kind of satisfying and would usually tear them out when i felt them go a little loose and i remember the sensation. usually the dream continues with me ripping out my teeth and slowly realizing that they are not coming back but being unable to stop.

  2. me and my childhood friend are in what resembles my middle school cafeteria (which was in a scary basement) (were both 20). we’re being made to do dishes as punishment so we’re led to the kitchen and left there but the kitchen has been repurposed as an office and a bunch of IT guys are trying to work and seem mildly annoyed by the interruption.

  3. in a lot of my dreams, instead of walking down the stairs i will jump down the stairwell and fall to the ground.

  4. multiple dreams where my family is on vacation and it keeps being prolonged by my mom for no apparent reason. the vacation is always just hanging out in a house and after a while i desperately want to leave, im frustrated because i am missing work, but my mom is putting off planning to leave. like she’ll tell me to pack and we’ll go home tomorrow but we keep hanging around doing nothing for days afterwards…like it’s not malicious everyone is just messing around and not really prioritizing leaving to they don’t do the things necessary to leave

  5. my mom drove me and my younger siblings to another country (i forget where, maybe china?) and to drive from the united states to china or wherever she drove north through siberia

  6. now that it’s been longer since i graduated these are less frequent but i still have dreams where im in high school, specifically dreams where im not sure if i graduated or not. there was one where i thought i graduated but then i learn that i have another year left and there was another where i was doing another year at school then im informed that i graduated and dont have to be there.

  7. my childhood friend had borrowed some vinyls from me (i don’t collect vinyls) and i broke into their dad’s house to take them back but i accidentally stole the wrong thing (context which makes this funnier: my sister had borrowed a t-shirt at the time and i was annoyed bc shes really bad about giving back things she borrows)

  8. when i was still chronically on twitter i had a dream where i posted a poll like “do you like my new layout :3” and everyone said no

whenever im in a psych ward i dream about twitter constantly ??

  1. my sister had a baby with her (now ex) shitty boyfriend and then i was hiding in a house with an old man because the apocalypse happened(?) and at the end of the dream someone flew up in the sky and dropped the baby but when it hit the ground it was a plastic baby doll (me talking to my friends abt it: “also at some point near the end of the dream one of the women like accidentally threw the baby and it fazed through the wall and hit the floor hard but it was a baby doll?”)

  2. another baby-related one i hosted a gender reveal and my brother who is like mentally disabled because he has brain damage was there but he was completely neurotypical (? i guess. also to be clear he became disabled when he was really young i don’t remember before) and the reveal was through cupcakes so he got the gender cupcake and then later my girlfriend showed up and i told her i was pregnant with twins (1 boy one girl i think??) like literally at the gender reveal for her (??? idk where i got the babies) baby.

  3. was at the beach in south korea with my mom and younger sister but i couldn’t find a cute swimsuit. also i specifically wanted to swim there because id swam in the atlantic ocean but never the pacific?

u/64lilwhitethings — 2 days ago

trying to find a decent quality sticker making machine / printer for a beginner !!

i’m sorry if this is a bad place to ask, i’m not really in the sticker making community or physical art/crafts in general, this is for my little sister!

my little sister is turning 13 next month. while at a store i saw a “create your own sticker” book which made me think of her. she used to make stickers with paper and tape. i think she would prefer to design her own stickers instead of something like a sticker coloring book though, so i started looking into sticker printers.

i figured amazon is probably a bad place to look. most of the sticker printers i found seemed cheap and gimmicky. it reminds me of a sticker printer a friend of mine had that only printed really blurry pictures. on the other end of the spectrum, i don’t think she needs something professional-grade. while i do think she’ll like it, im not sure how much she’ll use it yk and if this becomes a hobby for her then upgrading could be considered!!! ofc budget is also a concern but my older sister has offered to help pay to get her a nicer one, so instead of having the budget of one broke twenty year old we have two!!!

i’m also not set on a sticker printer. if there are other sorts of sticker making techniques that you would recommend instead i’m totally open!! like ive thought of sticker paper that she could draw on, but i think she’d like to be able to print out memes and stuff which is why i abandoned that idea. i figure if she wants to make her drawings into stickers (i think she draws??? idk she’s shy and rarely shows me but what i do see is rlly good) she can take photos then print those out.

basically what would you recommend for a 13 year old who i think will get a good amount of use out of it, something that is decent quality but still beginner friendly and kid friendly? i dont like the dropshipped gimmicky ones that i see but i dont know where to find other options ?

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u/64lilwhitethings — 3 days ago

i just wanted to share because i’ve never heard this talked about before.

TRIGGER WARNING

talking about “severe” self-harm and self-mutilation / self-harming behaviors that cause significant bodily injury and risk severe complications. nothing detailed, i don’t describe methods or what things looked like but i get some people are sensitive to self-harm being framed that way.

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when i was in a psych hospital in october, my psychiatrist prescribed me naltrexone to help with self-harm urges. she told me she was “outraged” that nobody had put me on naltrexone before which i think is a bit silly considering my other dr hadn’t even heard of it being used that way but.

usually it’s used for addictions like alcohol or opioids but i looked it up when i got home and did find a few studies about naltrexone’s effectiveness for treatment-resistant severe self-harm/self-mutilation. so like obviously i don’t think this should be the first line of treatment. i know for me personally my doctors were concerned because i wasn’t improving fast enough since they were worried i could die at any time from non suicidal self injury. i’d been hospitalized 8 times and every time i would start self harming afterwards. at the time i was hospitalized for cutting off a part of my body which i almost bled out from. i’m bipolar and borderline & regardless of what mood i was in i would pretty much always self harm. like i could have a great day and then go home and later that day need to go to the ER. this has been going on since i was 14 and im 20 now. what im trying to say is that psychotherapy is the best treatment for self harm, i just didn’t know that medication was an option for treatment resistant self harm.

it was hard to tell if it was working at first because my self harm was never very consistent. i would do it every few days to few weeks but when i did it would do a lot of damage. now that it’s been like half a year i am pretty confident that it’s helping? there have been a few instances but i feel like my actual drive to self harm has reduced. like i still have ideation i guess but those thoughts rarely turn into actions because i find myself just like not wanting to. the severity has also decreased when i do self harm. it took me like an hour usually to make a cut i was happy with but since starting the medication i tend to get sick of hurting myself part way through and i stop earlier.

this is sort of silly but sometimes i will try to motivate myself to self harm but i never end up actually doing it. like i know this sounds like im trying to get myself to do homework not cut off my arm but ill be like “after work i should cut” and then i dont do it.

after i got discharged i told my older sister like “they put me on a pill to make me stop cutting myself and i think its working” she started crying and sort of laughing like “they can do that?” even if it didnt work i think seeing her reaction was really impactful. like i know i worry my family a lot, especially my mom and my sister. when i got taken by the ambulance after the “at home surgery” thing my moms ex bf (who still lived with us then) said that he walked past my moms room and my little brother was sleeping in her bed while my mom was at the hospital w/ me. he and my other sister literally didn’t know what was going on they just saw me being carried out of the house by the first responders. i also had surgery on my 19th bday and was in the hospital from the day before to the day after because i had an infection from self harm. (also apparently the patient next to me had the same birthday as me??)

so i just wanted to spread awareness especially for people who have treatment resistant and/or severe self mutilating behaviors. doctors are only really trained to treat self harm that looks one way, and it does make me happy that there is more research being put into that type of self mutilation because i’ve found that traditional methods don’t really help. i’ve also found that with any kind of talk therapy my therapists would get distressed and frustrated when i wasn’t showing improvement quickly enough and i understand that because me stopping was sort of urgent, there were many times i almost died and it was a risk whenever i cut myself.

not sure how long ive been clean. i don’t like to measure it that way because i feel like it makes relapsing a bigger deal than it already is and makes me unmotivated to keep going if my streak resets..: but i haven’t had any major incidents since october. technically not since late september since while i was discharged oct 3rd(?) i had been in the hospital for 10 days before that…, that is like 7 months?

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u/64lilwhitethings — 22 days ago