Duuuuuuude.... I'm so pissed.
Finding a partner is fucking hard, I want emotional companion. I'm in aromantic, asexual, and asensual spectrum. I'm fatigued by the feeling - being a kite without a string. I want fucking tether.
I am in asexual, aromantic, and asensual spectrum. As aromantic, I can't feel romantic attraction but I love my partner with all my heart and soul, anyway as aromantic I can't feel attraction, so if anyone flirts with me, I take it as a sign of interested in relationship, then I invest in then quickly. If you are not interested in a relationship please don't contact me, or flirt with me. I don't want to invest my time if you are not interested.
I'm tagging a post here to give you more perspective but feel free to browse through my profile. https://www.reddit.com/r/aromanticasexual/s/VlMyI82BSX
Also I'm not looking for lavender marriage for the society, it took me a long time to undo the systemic imprint society has left on me. If you are Indian and in LGBTQA+, and want lavender marriage, please don't contact me.
If we vibe well, may be we can exchange discord and do audio call. FYI I am not a texting person, hence VC.
I have done my bachelor’s degree in Physics, and then life happened. I was diagnosed with cervical lordosis, sciatica spondilithesis, and fibromyalgia. I was also going through heavy depression.
After doing job analysis and a lot of self-reflection, I realized I would be a much better fit in psychology. So now I’m finishing my psychology degree. I have two more exams left in June.
What scares me is that I didn’t know about the UGC ban that happened last June. Since I already made a cross-major shift from Physics to Psychology, I’m now worried about what my options are going forward.
I want something in my control. I want my life back.
I’m 30 years old and already feel like I’ve lost a lot of time because of illness and everything that happened. With the UGC situation, my prospects of entering a PhD program and eventually becoming a psychologist feel like they are diminishing by the second.
I try my best not to think about it until I finish my exams, but things keep happening, and I’m honestly terrified for my future. I’m trying my best to move forward, and I’m really scared about where I’m going to end up.
Note: forgot to add - I'm studying in distance education because of my physical health condition.
I dunno which one is worse - having physical pain and fatigue or mental pain and fatigue. Whenever I have fibrofog it feels like SEVERE form aphasia, which is all the time.
L-carnitine helps me with the cramps and musculoskeletal pain, since I study and work from home, I am horizontal literally all the time. When I was doing my internship, I had to take sustained release paracetamol every day to keep up with fatigue, swelling, flu- like symptoms. Apart from that I always feel like I have imposter syndrome.
But whenever I can't study, communicate - I can't understand a sentence, I can't articulate my thoughts, understand others, most of the time when I hear someone talk, it feels like white noise to me. I only get brief moments of lucidity, even then I need to crunch all the things in that brief moment, which makes me heavily nauseous.
I want to get out of this shit.