u/7asisn

Slowly I started watching again yesterday and opening messages from people. I know what I was doing even though I was acting innocent. It’s to the point where I’m confused what to do now

After 90 days of being clean, something possessed me to just “check messages”. Which lead to deleting chats but little by little I took looks. Before i knew it I was scrolling mindlessly, taking in whatever popped up. I told myself “I’m not touching myself”.

I did some real damage because all I could think about is some of the stuff that I seen. Some filthy stuff and some stuff I really really like. At one point I was commenting and deleting on posts practically begging someone to message me.

I can’t get it out of my head and at the same time some part of me desires to go back to my old ways

I’m back in a sadder mental state and I’m finding myself on this app. Finding myself more intrigued than I was a week ago.

There actually was a handful of people that it was nice talking to + I got pleasured needs from. As I’m “deleting some chats” I’m finding myself rereading and even taking glimpses at things I shouldn’t.

I’m back in a sadder mental state and I’m finding myself on this app. Finding myself more intrigued than I was a week ago.

There actually was a handful of people that it was nice talking to + I got pleasured needs from. As I’m “deleting some chats” I’m finding myself rereading and even taking glimpses at things I shouldn’t.