
The things I use to justify
We were together for 10 years. He was the kind of person where this didn't happen often. 3 times he pushed me hard enough to cause bruising, all 3 times I was next to a counter corner, the edge of the bed frame or the chest at the end of my parents guest bedroom. 2 times he punched holes in the wall. 3 times I asked to stop having sex because I was crying but he kept going and said just let me finish.
At the time I justify all of his actions, all times I lashed back at him for what he did so I felt guilty that I blamed myself. I wish him pushing me into the corner of the chest while I was pregnant was my final straw but I said 2 more years until he cheated. Granted I realized I had stopped loving him prior to us getting married but every time we broke up he wouldn't leave me alone. Anyone I consulted, which wasn't a lot of people, told me it was normal and it doesn't happen often he'll work on things. I told my mom about the time when I was pregnant to she said I had to have done something to provoke him because I do it to her and being a single mom is worse than what he did.
It's better to just leave and let people have their own opinions, in my case.