I spiraled today, and I sent my sister a voice memo in hysterics. Now she’s suggesting I drop everything and come to Florida.
I will try to make this as short as possible.
In 2024, I realized I had mental health issues. I lived in Florida at the time near my family. I was damn near suicidal and my family helped me get out of that. Well my husband and I couldn’t make it there. It was so expensive, so we moved back to Texas.
The last month and a half I took off work for my mental health. It was unpaid. It put me in dire financial duress. And my husband and I are trying hard to get back. My mental health has proven to be getting worse and I sent my sister a voice memo today in hysterics. She suggested I fly to Florida by myself (my husband and I have a 6 year old as well) and get the support I need for a couple weeks. A reset. I’m supposed to go back to work Monday. But my sister thinks I will never be able to keep a job and live a stable life until I get this under control.
This is going to cause more financial problems for me. But I know she’s right. At home, I don’t get the support I need. My husband comes from a family that doesn’t believe in mental health, and only believes in hard work because money makes the world go round. You do whatever it takes to make money.
They base how proud they are of him on how successful he is financially. As much as he tries, he isn’t what I need during this time.
He doesn’t make enough to get us caught up. We need both incomes.
But it’s just so hard for me and I feel my mental health getting worse. I’m torn between focusing on that or focusing on getting myself out of this financial hole. My sister says cars and jobs can be replaced. But not easily for me.
I don’t know what I’m looking for posting this. I guess I need to know if I make the decision to go be with my family, that my mental health problems won’t come rushing back once I come back to my financial hole.
Thanks for reading if you got this far.