This is a trend that I’ve been noticing recently, but it seems like people who have an eating disorder nine times out of ten have the most horrible, pro-ana, shitty boyfriend ever. Like what’s up with that? The amount of times I’ve seen boyfriends encouraging their gfs/partners to starve themselves and getting upset when they choose recovery is crazy.
This is gonna sound stupid but im going to say it anyway. I’m embarrassed to admit I have an eating disorder mainly due to edtt. They make eds sound so corny to the point it’s deadass making me think about recovery. Not to mention the amount of young girls (im talking younger than 14) giving each other tips on how to dry fast and even purge. A lot of them are also misinformed and it’s making me mad. Like no Samantha you did not lose >!20 pounds!< in one week 😭 seeing posts on edtt makes me genuinely cringe (as horrible as it sounds because Ik these people are mentally ill like me) and whenever I try to comment something like “Well starving is actually bad” or “it’s not possible to lose that much weight in a short amount of time” I’m getting hoarded by a bunch of tween-teenage girls saying how starving is better than getting fat. It’s really cringy and they make edtwt look like a safe heaven in comparison. Also the whole personification of different disorders is so weird. “BED tried to take me by Ana saved me🪽” WHAT ARE WE TALKING ABOUTTTT it’s so corny and edgy and weird, especially how they straight up demonize Binge eating but treat anorexia as some divine thing that makes them skinny and dainty when in reality both are very dangerous eating disorders.
It’s a very silly thing to get mad about but I still do cuz that’s just how my mind works. Genuinely hope the best for those people in the future
Im wondering if anyone has developed a caffeine dependency as well?? When I was deep and I mean deep in my ed I would use energy drinks as an appetite suppressant, which ultimately lead me to becoming dependent on them to function throughout the day </3. A whole binge cycle and a year later I still drink energy drinks because without them I’m basically a walking zombie. Anyone else?
Sometimes I stare at people who are rlly skinny at my school that I sometimes just look like a weirdo or that I want to fight them. Like I truly do not have bad intentions it’s like I subconsciously do it😭😭
I normally binge a lot during finals or anything academically pressuring but I haven’t actually really binged so far. I obviously still have thoughts on wanting to eat the entire fridge at night and I sometimes do get a bite or two of like a piece of bread, but nothing more than that.
I feel really proud of myself because I remember the amount of times I binged before winter break last year <\3
I’ve always loved the universe and how it works. I’m currently a junior going on to senior year and I’ve decided I wanted to study astrophysics when I go to college. The thing is though, I am pretty bad at math. My sophomore year I actually did really really well in it, and my teacher was one of the best ones ever. However, this year was my first time doing honors classes and I got put in an honors math class. I really struggled, and averaged a C or even a D in most tests/quizzes which led me to have to retake them every time. I have a high B in that class and it’s the only B I have (all my other classes are As)
I feel really discouraged because I know for becoming an astrophysicist you need to have a strong foundation in math, but I just can’t seem to grasp some concepts as fast as my other classmates. I don’t know if it’s fatigue from junior year, but I feel really dumb compared to other people. Not to mention my CAASPP scores came out, and even though I got a 4 in English and a 3 in science, I got a 2 in math. I feel really sad and like I am not going to be able to pursue becoming an astrophysicist in the future. Any advice??
Edit: The comments do help. Some of them are a little bit discouraging I do admit, but I am willing to work as hard as I can so I can get good at math. Obviously if this doesn’t work out I do have a plan b (and c and d) lol. But overall the advice is really helpful so I appreciate that. Btw, I saw some people say that I don’t really know what astrophysics truly is, but I do. I know it’s basically a whole other branch of physics combined with applied math, and to understand it you have to have a strong understanding of what you’re doing. I really love math even though it frustrates me sometimes, so I really have no problems having to dedicate hours of my life studying it. Thank you again for the advice and replies.
Deadass I opened it and gasped like actually gasped it was the only unit I actually studied for😭😭 I’m hoping for a 4 at least