i think i need a bunch of red state evangelical christians to brainwash me for some weeks and then i’ll be good enough to brainwash myself for life. then i’ll have children(multiple) so i’ll have no time to think and therefore repressing will be easy. thoughts?
i’m alone with my thoughts (terrible idea) and i just can’t stop thinking about how women are so horrifically disadvantaged in this world in every single way that matters.
i feel so jealous of men. i hate that no one will see me as an important person, or even a real person at all, just because i don’t have a penis. i want to be seen outside of my appearance. i want to be allowed varying interests. i want to just *exist*
everything is about a woman’s appearance no matter what. rich, poor, whatever. men are programmed to believe that we’re less stronger, less smart, less capable than them. so many women believe this same thing and spout it at others in so many kinds of ways. we are only just babydolls on an old dusty shelf and i don’t know how i can cope with that. i cry about it so often. being feminine or sexy or whatever doesn’t make me feel empowered, it just makes me feel lesser than.
seeing men makes me so angry because of the fact that everything they do is just a representation of them being above us on the hierarchy :-| everything they do feels like i’m being made fun of. seeing a man be taller than me makes me so upset, i seriously become a green eyed monster. i’m still young so hopefully this passes by but i seriously wish there was a button i could press for everything to be the exact same except i was born male. seeing my body makes me feel so hopeless and inferior