Am I being irrational?
I just turned 20 a few weeks ago and for full disclosure I am a virgin, not in the sense of asexuality or for lack of opportunity but I have a serious aversion toward letting women anywhere near my dick, ive been in multiple relationships and done medial things like fingering foreplay even let this red head jack me off one time but the issue evolves when faced with the daunting task of putting it in her mouth or inside of her its like an unstoppable force meeting an immovable object I have this perpetual fear that once I do so if she moves the wrong way it will snap, or if I put it in her mouth she could close it, its a matter of self preservation lmfao how do I go about mitigating and fixing this