Feeling so depressed
My partner’s cocaine usage makes me so sad for the future; his health, his wealth, everything.
He’s been snorting just about every week. Sometimes once a week, twice and three times. And each time it’s with tons of alcohol!!! Which is so incredibly dangerous. His blood pressure is usually in the 200/100s (really)!! Then when he’s high he gambles all of his money away which forces me to give him money so he can float by. Rinse and repeat.
He came home this morning at 7am wanting to drink booze so he can come down and get some sleep. Did not happen until 1pm. It just ruined the whole Sunday for me because he doesn’t like when I leave him when he’s sleeping. So I lied down next to him the whole time until he woke up.
I really don’t enjoy wasting my weekends like that. And the crazy thing is.. my partner works six days a week; off on Sundays!! I’m like “don’t you get tired of not being able to enjoy your only day off???”
TL;DR I’m just fed up