40 days clean and i tested positive

I need to be clean by the start of august. i took a little test on my own just to see how things are 😭 and man that shit turned positive real quick (was a chronic smoker) i’m feeling a bit paranoid now…. anyone have any methods or tips to try to get this out of my system???

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u/AdhesivenessWitty126 — 2 days ago

1 month clean and i hate my life now

been smoking for about 2 years everyday and ppl will say i’m crazy but it genuinely had changed my life for the better with school as my grades improved like crazy, finally felt organized with my life, and my depression was gone which was something i’ve struggled for most of my life. i’ve tried damn near everything from working out, eating healthy, medications, and even therapy and nothing has worked besides smoking unfortunately. 1 month clean and man this shit sucks ngl, quitting cuz i plan on going to nursing program next semester and they regularly drug test so i rlly had no choice. i just feel like i went back to square 1 as my depression is back i feel so dysfunctional and unmotivated to do damn near anything. I’m scared to even start nursing as studying and being organized has been so hard for me lately. i know it takes a while for my dopamine lvls to get back to normal but i rlly don’t even think i had normal dopamine in the first place LOL. i’ve been trying my hardest working out and eating healthy but man i don’t even have a passion to stuff i liked to do. i just feel so lost and i wish there was a cure to all of this without relying on a drug :/

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u/AdhesivenessWitty126 — 10 days ago

nursing student and friendship

I feel that most of my friends who are outside of nursing are very understanding that i’m very busy with school which i’m so thankful for. but i am friends with this one girl who i would say we are are pretty close friends. she expects me to constantly hang out with her each wk and which i genuinely do not have time as i’m either in class, in clinicals, studying, or honestly just tired af. the most i can do social hang outs is maybe 1-2 a month. and yes i do have friends in my program just to study tg and maybe get food tg as its convenient. l i remember before i was in the program anytime id be busy studying as I need straight A’s to even be considered in any nursing school i feel like she’d constantly be like “it’s not that hard ur in community college” which yes i go to nursing school in cc to save money but cc or even uni nursing school is competitive and strict everywhere… and ofc she wouldn’t know as she’s just a business major. i always feel like she uses her situations to for me to hang out w her saying she’s going thru it which i mean okay i’m here if you need to text or call but i don’t have time anymore to go to concerts and parties and i shouldn’t be feeling sure maybe in the future but i’m focused on my career and i shouldn’t be getting ridiculed for being busy. i’m not rlly sure how to go abt this as i never rlly had a friend be clingy like this constantly.

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u/AdhesivenessWitty126 — 12 days ago

quitting weed

been smoking for 2 yrs straight i’ve never had any problems with it just would get hungry more often sometimes. I decided to stop cold turkey as i’m planning to work in healthcare and I know they regulate test. It’s been a month now and my physical withdrawals maybe lasted for a 2 wks and felt fine after. This sounds stupid and I know scientifically it’s not true at all but i genuinely think smoking has helped me so much with school (have maintained a 4.0), made me super productive, and regulate my emotions/stress better. Ever since i’ve stopped I’ve just haven’t had the motivation to do anything at all, and I know it’s probably all in my head but I can’t do any of my tasks i’m always late now and just constantly tired. And I know maybe it’s just the beginning stages maybe i’ll start to improve later on but I would always hear how quitting improved their productivity but for me it’s been the quite opposite.
Has anyone experienced something similar?

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u/AdhesivenessWitty126 — 18 days ago