u/Admirable_Ad_279

18F. I’m schizophrenic and autistic sorry if it’s disorganized i just need advice.

Dad doesn’t believe me and thinks it’s just hemmorhoids and we don’t have family doctor, and I don’t know where to go for advice.

Symptoms:

Bright red Blood in diarrhea for 2 days now (started slowly 4 days ago by just bright red in my toilet paper then slowly more and more bright red blood in my diarrhea and it’s just worse and worse)

Extreme dizziness almost passing out. Hallucinating (did not take any drugs whatsoever) and feeling rlly weak

Abdominal pain that sometimes runs to my shoulders, gassy and sharp pains.

Hurts to shit sometimes. Genuinely have cried.

Is this just hemorrhoids or is it a bigger underlying problem. Because I tried checking inside Yk and I didn’t find or feel any hemmoroids whatsoever. Genuinely scaring me

Am I overthinking or is it genuinely something I should get checked out as soon as possible. Because more than half of the diarrhea is just bright red blood chunks and chunks of white too. Should I be concerned.

I also didn’t eat anything weird or anything red whatsoever and it’s been like this for 2-3 days about. Genuinely scaring me. Please advice.

I’m 18F and started it at 16. Past 1-2 years only had 4 relapses every few months. I started m3th because I was abused and beaten into it. I don’t want my childhood butterfly mad at me. I don’t want to lose my trust. I literally am at the verge of relapsing. I’m scared I’m crying I’m in a lot of pain I’m 4 months clean going to rehab soon. Had to leave because of sexual harassment/assualt. I’m scared I don5 want to do it yet I do. If I do do it how will it look like for me? Will I be ok? Because I’m determined to stay clean for good. But ts honestly breaking me apart. I ruined alot with meth. I gotta dispose ts.

I’m 18F and started it at 16. Past 1-2 years only had 4 relapses every few months. I started m3th because I was abused and beaten into it. I don’t want my childhood butterfly mad at me. I don’t want to lose my trust. I literally am at the verge of relapsing. I’m scared I’m crying I’m in a lot of pain I’m 4 months clean going to rehab soon. Had to leave because of sexual harassment/assualt. I’m scared I don5 want to do it yet I do. If I do do it how will it look like for me? Will I be ok? Because I’m determined to stay clean for good. But ts honestly breaking me apart. I ruined alot with meth. I gotta dispose ts.