u/Admirable_Boss_8994

I can't find it myself

At 19! Its a big deal for a non-white person like me 😍 and someone who grew up ridiculously I MEAN RIDICULOUSLY sheltered

yaaayyyayayayay

I think this started when I was 15 and going on since. I tried treatments. Like the real stuff. Would it be bad if I said they werent for me? Like, I am somehow out of the group of people that theraphy can help? I switched 3 theraphists. None of them could help me. I also hate pills. I refused antidepressants after seeing what they did to my mom throughout all her trials. Absaloutely not. And I don't think I'm THAT crazy, yk? I think I'm just smart but my brain makes me sad. And the idea of meds disgust me. I only force painkillers in just to ge through stuff and feel like throwing up every time. As this went on, I turned 18 and will soon turn 19. (in November)

I literally hate life