Now how do we incorporate this guy into our too-many-sided love shape...
Over the past couple of months of us being here we've noticed several posts of either college students or someone coming to the Yumeshipping reddit to interview or research or something about yumeshippers. This is suppose to be a fun hobby for most and a coping mechanism for some, seeing some people coming in to 'collect information' or watch us like a bunch of lab rats feels uncomfortable to us. Especially since a good portion of the subreddit is minors.
Maybe we're being dramatic, but it feels off that people are coming to yumeshippers to study them when there are many other non-personal things to study.
Edit: We'd like to state real quick that we're not trying to start debates or arguements. We just wanted to express our personal discomfort for it. People can do what they want but we just wanted to know if we're alone in this discomfort or not because it in general just feels off. We can't explain it ourself but it just feels that way to us.
We think we've split an alter who has been hiding around for a while from a situation that happened a few months ago and we don't know if there has to be a certain amount of trauma for an alter to be considered traumagenic.. a lot of us are stressgenic and anxiegenic but none of us as we know are traumagenic..
Anti-endos are doing the exact thing they claim endos do, only worst. The fact someone has so little in their life that they decide to be a fake safe space for endos just to hate, mock, and make fun of endos behind their back while they think they're safe.
We said absolutely nothing, we were minding our business and reading rules and NO WHERE did it say this server was anti-endo. Unfortunately most yumeship servers we find are anti-endo and heavily market when they're anti-endo so we were hoping since it said nothing about endos it was at least endo neutral. No, they go out of their way to mock us after they likely read our profile cause we're open about being an endo system.
Characters:
- Toshinori Yagi
- Shota Aizawa
- Hizashi Yamada
- Korosensei
- Caine
- Harley Sawyer
- Gregory House
- Ticket Taker
- Nathan Freeling
- Serial Designation J
- Serial Designation V
We don't know where else to go as a system so here we are.
We relasped again. Two months and seventeen days since the last time we relasped. Down the drain. Gone. No more. All because we crack under pressure. Because it was the straw that broke the camels back.
She knows we hate touch, and by she we mean our mother. She knows we absolutely hate touch yet she still does it. She did it again, she made it a point to grab our foot after we were already pulling it back out of her way. (We were sitting sideways in the chair in the living room. Where we were sitting our legs would block the small walk between the couch and the chair to the front door.) She grabs our foot and we pull away saying 'don't do that' then she huffs and get mad at us. Well, she comes back around and asks us if we took our medicine, in an unintentionally irrtated voice we answer yes and she gets upset at us for having an attitude after she was huffing and puffing at us wanting a boundary to be respected.
Well, then she asks to use our speaker our cousin gave to us a few years ago. So we go through the entire trouble of hunting it up, we hand it to her and we ask if they're going to be playing loud music because earlier they were playing loud music from the truck and even with the TV on and drowning a portion of it out it was bringing distress to us because it was a way louder thing and we do not do so well with loud noises. (And side note that she couldn't possibly know because she lacks knowledge of our plurality, is that a lot of us were in front for the moment so we were a lot more overwhelmed especially after a long day of barely being able to breathe or do anything because we are currently sick.) She then says in the most prissy and face-punching worthy tone "But it won't be a problem". We never said it would we just wanted it know so we could prepare ourself. So obviously we're pissed off, we close the front door a little too hard and she gets pissed off opening the door and says "Do you wanna take back slamming the door?" Keep in mind that the weather strip or whatever makes it impossible to keep the door latched so you basically have to slam it in order to make it latch and stay closed. Albiet, we mumbled 'bitch' under our breathe before she opened the door back up to 'scold us' or whatever.
The third and final straw that made us actually break down is her and her boyfriend blowing a whistle or whatever. It's a loud high pitched noise, we do not do well with loud noises. We open the door, we ask "What's with the whistle?" In the least aggressive and smallest voice we can muster up because we are already in a panicked state. She yells at us "Because I wanna blow a fucking whistle". We start breaking down and explain through tears that we were not being mean or anything. She just tells us to calm down and turn the TV on or something. I'm sorry, a TV can not drown our speakers, let alone a high pitched whistle.
So in a mental breakdown, we gather our stuff from the living room and just stumble into our room. Turning our TV on and grabbing a pair of scissors and breaking our streak. Now our arm hurts, we're sick, and we feel like shit.
While we're here, let us list a few more thingd she's done that generally pisses all of us off.
On top of that she has been the reason for many times we've harmed ourself because we can not fit into her image of a daughter or she's made us think it is our fault for being this way.
Thank for you reading this. Have a great day and stay safe.
— Dr Harley Sawyer, He/They || The Doctor System
Cause we never talk about our plurality, but we both silently know we're plural. So we'll just be two quiet systems sitting across the table from each other. Occasionally we talk, like we helped them get onto SimplyPlural a few months before the announcements of it shutting down, they're supportive of endos as a medically recognized system.
However our system friend online, pluraltiy is one of the most common topics of discussion. Maybe because it's just more eaiser to talk about online, but the contrast is just so silly to me specifically.
(This is more of a ran but we do not have a rant tag here)
When the hell did we split a fictive of that guy? I'm just looking through ampersand and there he is with an unfinished profile. This is stupid. I quit.
(I can't fucking quit </3)
— Pennywise, He/It || 🎈
Especially the first time when we actually introduced our husbands to our dad for a formal greeting outside of the whole heros vs villains thing.. ahahaha...
Which, our personal label is undecided yet cause like.. bite us. Anyways.
During the first whole 'familg dinner' type of introduction. The entire time we were subconsciously acting as a human barrier between our dad and our husbands. Just the fact our dad is All For One and one of our partners is litteraly All Might is messy in itself 🥹
But like.. he lowkey is a great dad and will ignore his goals for one day for us :3
Whats even funnier is we "jokingly" told them our dad was All For One. . . We still can't get over the look on their faces when they found out we weren't joking.