I'm a "burdon" on the rest of the team
So I started this job in May. Its at a local grocery, whole foods type place. I was originally hired to be a deli clerk. You know, the guy where if you see a potato salad behind glass and you want it, I'm the guy who serves it, weighs it, and puts a silly little sticker on it so the cashier can scan it.
About a week after I started, they wanted to know if I wanted to do prep. I was like "sure I've done lots of prep no problem." Well, someone quit recently, so they're now switching me to just prep, and then hiring a new deli clerk. Well the moment they decided that, my manager went on vacation. While she was on vacation, people kept getting sick, and I kept having to cover for the deli. Most of the time I would show up for a prep shift, then in the middle of the shift they would switch me back to deli. Meanwhile, I've barely been trained or had any practice on the stuff I need to do in prep.
Then, my manager comes back... She told me "well you've done prep for a month so now I expect you to be able to do things just as fast as everyone else." Literally right before she went on vacation, she told me not to worry about how long things take.
Most things I haven't been trained on, and many of the things I have been trained on, Ive only done once. Not to mention every time I get trained on something, someone else will say the way I did it (the way I was literally just trained) was wrong.
This week, my manager pulled me aside and said something on the lines of "you aren't doing things fast enough and it's putting stress on the rest of the team." To me that sounds like "you're being a burden on everyone else." Then she proceeds to basically nitpick every single task I do, all week. Every time she sees me she just stares and waits for me to do something she can criticize.
Its making me feel like if I don't go fast enough, she might fire me, which hardly seems fair. I've had a handful of prep shifts before they threw me in, expecting me to be able to do it fast.
I've done lots of food prep jobs, and many of them have sucked, but at the very least they didn't expect me to know how to do things with telepathy. I don't care how I do it, but everywhere wants it done different. Some places use tomato slicers, some places slice by hand. Everywhere is different, and every machine is different. I still have to be shown what to do, even if I have experience.
On top of this, I'm pregnant and I'm fucking dying. My stamina is at an all time low and I was unable to take my adhd medications until this week.
I just... Feel like she's being unreasonable. And it makes me feel like shit. I really don't want to go to work, but I have to.
I'm just so burnt out and I'm in so much pain. I don't know if she's just being a bitch or actually threatening me. They're so understaffed that firing me would probably be a really stupid idea.
I just... Needed somewhere to vent. I keep going over it in my head and getting so mad.