u/Affectionate_Newt678

Just got paid from regular job and my accounts I had forgotten about auto renewed and took 700+ from my bank account. Does TPT refund if I don’t touch these accounts?

My little brother and I are only about two years apart, and this has honestly been a problem for most of our lives. He has always had this need to prove that he’s tougher than me, better than me, or somehow above me, especially in front of other people. The weird part is our lives went in completely different directions. He’s been in and out of jail, has kids he barely takes care of, drinks and parties a lot, has multiple girlfriends, has trouble keeping a job, and is constantly needing rides or depending on other people. I went the opposite direction. I joined the Navy, got out, built a career, support myself, and generally stay out of trouble. I’m not saying that to act like I’m better than him, but I think the difference between our lives is part of why he has always needed to find something he can hold over me.
I can trace some of it all the way back to high school. I had an issue with a bully and my brother got involved in a fight connected to it, and afterward he basically ran with the story that he “beat up my bully.” I honestly wonder sometimes if I helped create this monster by involving him because after that it felt like being tougher than me became part of his identity. Even stupid shit like basketball would turn into competition. I’d go for a dunk and miss, then he would immediately try one and make it like he needed everybody to see the difference. He tries to speak for me around people too. If I correct him and say I can speak for myself, instead of just accepting it he starts acting like I’m challenging him and wants to fight. He literally told me “don’t get fucked up” over a prison phone before because I corrected him. I can’t even talk to his baby mama for too long without him thinking I’m trying to sleep with her. Everything becomes some kind of threat or competition in his head.
The reason this bothers me so much is because other people have noticed the dynamic too. Years ago I was working with my dad and he was talking to a coworker about his kids. Some random coworker who barely even knew us started taking shots at me, basically saying my little brother wears the pants between us and I’m the pushover. I still remember that shit years later because it hit the exact insecurity I already had. It made me realize people can actually see the way my brother acts toward me, and sometimes I feel like by not fighting him or checking him harder, everybody thinks I’m scared of my own little brother.
Then on my birthday recently we were drinking at a pool with friends. I also happened to run into an old female friend I used to have a big crush on. She has a boyfriend now, but she was still being really sweet with me and obviously there was already some history there in my head. My brother decides he wants to wrestle in the pool, basically where whoever gets slammed loses. I knew our history and still stupidly agreed to it. He absolutely did me dirty. It wasn’t competitive, it was obvious I stood no chance, and he did me worse than anybody else he wrestled with. I’m 26 years old getting completely manhandled by my LITTLE brother in front of everybody on my birthday. The girl I used to like was sitting with her back between her boyfriend’s legs watching it happen, and she looked at ME and asked, “Why are you doing this?” That line has been stuck in my head because I think she could see I was voluntarily putting myself into a situation where my brother was using me to prove something again.
I know some people will say it was just drunk wrestling and I’m taking it too seriously, but it isn’t about one pool match. It’s 15+ years of this same dynamic stacked on top of each other. Every time he gets a chance to establish that he’s tougher than me, he takes it, especially if people are watching. And the fucked up part is I never want to actually fight him. It’s not because I’m scared to throw a punch. It’s because I know him. His pride and ego are so extreme that I genuinely believe if we ever had a real fight and he was losing, he would rather take it way too far than accept losing to me. I don’t think there would be a normal point where we shake hands and say it’s over. That’s my little brother and I don’t want either of us seriously hurt or locked up over some lifelong ego battle.
What made the whole birthday night even stranger is what happened afterward. I wasn’t there when it happened, but later that night he got into it with the police and ended up getting arrested for public intoxication and resisting arrest. From what I understand the cops did him pretty bad and publicly humiliated him. When I eventually saw him and dropped him off, he cried. I had literally never seen my brother cry before. This is somebody who carries himself like his pride is everything, and for the first time I saw that pride completely broken. And even after he had embarrassed the hell out of me earlier that same night, I didn’t feel satisfied seeing him like that. I felt terrible for him. He’s still my little brother.
That’s what has me fucked up about the whole situation. I love him. I don’t want to beat him up, humble him, embarrass him back, or see something terrible happen to him. But at the same time I’m tired of constantly feeling like I’m being made smaller so he can feel bigger. I’m tired of feeling weak because I refuse to turn every disrespectful situation into a fistfight. And because other people have actually noticed and commented on our dynamic before, I can’t just tell myself it’s all in my head. I don’t know how to change this relationship when setting a normal boundary with him can immediately turn into a threat to fight. I don’t want to cut my little brother off, but I also don’t want to spend the rest of my life feeling like I have to either let him disrespect me or physically fight him just to prove I’m not a pushover.

I got greedy, was up $1.1k last night, and decided to take a trade at market open this morning. I knew I shouldn’t have and my screen froze and once refreshed I hit my DLL…

After a year and 3 months, I finally took my first payout from top step and moved it to a live account which gets funded Monday. Trading ORB got me there, my question is, if the market doesn’t retest where do you look to enter next? Missed so many opportunities this week and lost capital when I could’ve made capital have I not waited for a retest. So many videos out there but I feel information overload will do my head in before Monday haha. Any tips? Simply explained?