u/Aggravating_Area_391

Hi, so I am just kind of curious because I hope that this isn't a unique experience and doubt it is, but I was wondering if there is maybe one sort of out of place major thing that has happened for anyone else as they have learnt more about their identity! So, not huge like coming out, more the smaller things that mean the world to YOU

For example, I will take some of my own experiences, but both of these are songs for me:

So, I have a good experience with the song 'LOST IN PARADISE' because whilst hearing it in the shower I had a huge moment of self acceptance that I am trans, and felt more like a girl than before.

Then, I have a bad experience with 'Komm süsser Todd' and now whenever I hear it I just feel terrible and hopeless. I love the song, but I just can't listen to it because of all the horrible thoughts it brings back.

Anyways, thank you so much for taking the time to read this and I hope you have an amazing pride month! Love to you all!

So, recently it has felt a lot more like I constantly have something behind me or something malicious is going to happen, like sitting in my room right now as ridiculous as it sounds I am terrified that if I open my door the outside won't be the same as before and I'll be stuck here forever, completely ridiculous but I am so scared. I haven't been able to sleep and I am way too scared that if I close my eyes I will just die. I don't know, I am so sorry! I just need help and thank you for your time.