Struggling with it
I made it to just about a month but stresses with my girlfriend led me to succomb to my urges to use porn to comfort myself and it still remains my go to to try and numb myself whenever I feel overwhelmed. It has nothing sexual to do with it and is more about being able to get that dopamine hit and disassociate form myself. I promised her I wouldn't relapse, but here I am... I'm disappointed in myself and it's a wake up call that I need to engage in here to try and talk to people with similar problems not just people around me who are supportive but people who truly understand it because they are going through the same thing. I used to tell her (my gf) when I'd fail and break but I feel that that only put pressure on myself even more. I don't want to use it as an excuse of "I'm doing it behind her back" or that I'm escaping responsibility but I want to get through this with my other support systems like my therapist and friends and family. Seeing the nature of the topic and what she expressed about this topic, I think it'll do more harm than good to her and me if I continue sharing it with her which is why I'm here today sharing it here with you guys
I will get better