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Warning: this post is not me looking for advice. I just need to let it out.

I don’t know how much longer I’m meant to hold out and try to get over him. I only dated him for six months and I left because I got scared. But in all honesty he was my first true love and I cannot get over it.

I miss him all the time. I cry over him all the time. I’ve flirted and been on dates and have had situationships. It changes nothing. I don’t feel what I felt with him at all. Nobody is him. The things I feel for him aren’t intense. It’s this feeling of belonging. It’s not sexually driven either, it feels innocent. It’s safe and warm and full of love.

We recently talked and he told me he thinks about me every day and would do it all over again but I’m so scared. And I love him so much it hurts. It has been a year since we have broken up and I don’t feel any better to be honest.

I would do anything for him. And I will never stop caring about him. I dread the day he finds a new partner and I’ll have to block him so I don’t explode from the jealousy.

Before anybody tells me to run back into his arms, it is a long distance thing and I left because not being able to be around him was sad. It made me sad. It made everything incredibly difficult. If he was here, I wouldn’t let go of him even for just a second.

I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving him. And I think I’m ok with that. I’m sorry if this was badly written, I’m sobbing really hard. Ok bye.

Maybe I’m naïve, or maybe I’m just dumb. But this is something I’ve wondered for a while.

I’ve known Shane for over a decade as a childhood fan. Over the years I’ve grown to just hate the man. But his entire life, his dream was to create movies. His vlog style “documentaries” were pretty mediocre but entertaining to a general audience. But now I see he’s made another official piece called “Cancelled”. And I agree with the general criticism. It’s not creative, it’s not deep or meaningful. It’s him having a therapy session with a film.

I just wonder why on earth doesn’t he make something creative and interesting. Why can he not make something artistic? Why does it either have to be disgusting and offensive like “Not cool” or completely self pitying like “cancelled”?

If he was serious about art, if he actually had that gift of creating… it would work. Imagine having so much money and connections and you use it to make a shitty piece about being cancelled because I guess the trauma is just so much.

To conclude: either be serious about creating art and make something special or give up on this stupid dream you’ve been clinging on desperately to for the last 25 years. Because it’s genuinely going nowhere. You could make a movie about anything in the world but you just decided to whine about being cancelled.

It would also help his image SO much if he made a great movie that was creative, engaging, emotional, dark. Anything! If he made something people loved and was just showing his artistic abilities, I genuinely think most people would brush over his past and begin to love him again. But he didn’t!

I haven’t watched his channel in a couple years but I assume he will express disappointment for how the movie didn’t blow up or how it got hate. Which… I mean what did you expect?

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