u/Alive_Storage9035

About a year ago I had two at home tests that turned out positive. Went straight to the clinic and got a natc test blood. And it was negative. I stopped having intercourse with anyone cause I was so scared. I stayed to myself. Fast forward a year, I donated plasma countless times about 10 times within a year , cause I was broke I was already cleared of the scare, and they do check all these things at the donation center. I donated for 8 months, I would assume if I did have hiv they would have told me very quickly. So I stopped worrying that it's been 8 months. I took another at home test that came out that I'm assuming is positive. But looks very negative because it's just a veryy tiny dash of a red mark at the end no full line. Really had to sit down and think if I did anything? And I can't come up with one thing that would have got me in the position to contract it? I do have an occasional partner I believe has also not done anything but idk I went and took another hiv at home test and the test showed negative but a very tiny speck of red showed at the end as its line was forming but didn't. Anyways I believe the test reacted to hiv again. I am trying not to get scared cause I've had this happen before, but I'm scared I don't understand why my at home test keeps coming out positive. The blood donation place hasn't deferred me so I figure my health is ok. Idk what to do to be honest, I don't want to donate anymore, cause my stupid at home test. I'm not sure if it's reacting to something else or these whole 8 months i had it idk. I'm only scared because from what I've I've read the test if any reaction on the t line, it's because it reacted to antibodies. Last time my test came out positive twice on the oraquick I almost lost it, but I don't understand why oraquick is giving me positive results all the time.

Hiv scare. I took two tests a year ago. Both at home tests came out positive. I went to the clinic and it turned out negative.waited a while to make sure it was really negative cause I donate plasma and don't want that to be a risk for anyone I have been donating a plasma for 7 months now and have been donating no issues.(Clearly after a period of time.) My concern is my at home hiv oraquick test keep coming back positive😞 and now I'm starting to get scared. I know they would let me know if I did have something, after 6 donations you would think so but I don't know what to do I don't know if my body is fighting a different infection, or I really have hiv. I can't trust the at home test, and now I'm worried. I don't have sex unprotected with strangers only with people that get regularly tested.i don't randomly have sex with strangers, but I really am confused as to why I test negative negatives then positive it's driving me crazy.

So for three years I dated a couple that had been together for 10 years. It was a gay polymorphism situationship. I love them both to death but lately I have been feeling left out of a lot of situations and it makes me feel lonely,imsecure and a variety of feelings. Just recently from observation and how they treat me I came to the realization they were no longer meeting my needs or making me happy, but I still love them. Now just recently I decided to get back out and date. I met a very nice guy. Gentleman and from what I grasped from him was that he was sweet, easy to talk to and I liked being around him. That being said I told the two guys that I wanted to focus on myself and my love interest. That in return led to the biggest argument of my life. I was told that im a peice of shot worthless, and almost got kicked out of my home for simply not liking them. I dont know what to do considering this is toxic, I still love them and don't want to ruin what he had, but my body and mind just seem to want to jsut give up and choose to pick the relationships we're im valued.