u/Alone_Flatworm4994

I’ve felt attracted to polyamory as a life style, not because of the sexual practice but I think I can find new aspects of myself through others.
However, I haven’t found much on whether it’s a “good” practice or not, regarding to our spiritual evolution.

Some say it’s a different path for everyone and maybe your souls feels compelled to it cause there’s something you’re learning = it’s okay, your growing.
Others say it’s not the path to follow, and that polyamory is a karmic pattern for descent, and see sexual purity as the main spiritual conflict of humans.

Do you have any thoughts on this? Also if you have any recommendations for me to investigate more, please do share :)

In my ideals and thoughts, I agree and want a poly life, but in my relationship I struggle with it.
I get insecure, am scared of my partner leaving me all the time. I can’t even be present with my partners because I feel awkward, I feel guilty like I’m cheating on everyone, I feel like I’m hurting my partners even when I know they agree and demonstrate they’re happy with me having other connections.
I don’t know how to make my feelings different. How could I level my feelings with what my ideals actually are?

Me (27F) and my girlfriend (24F) have been in a relationship for two years and a half, and in distance for only 6 months now.
Before the distance, we had a loving relationship, to the point where we talked about marriage and moving in together, and to me those conversations are serious talks. She even assured me I was the love of her life, and that’s not something neither her or I take lightly.

When we visit each other, every two months, everything’s perfect (of course we fight sometimes about normal relationship stuff), but when we go apart, she starts going distant and neglecting our relationship. She says is because she misses me physically. Not only the touch but the just being with each other in the same real space, seeing each other’s faces when telling a story, seeing their reactions, and all those things. Lately she’s been thinking of breaking up because of this.

I don’t know what to say to her anymore. For one hand, if she was serious about me being the love of her life, how could she think of breaking up over distance, which, it’ll be over in two years. To me it seems somewhat immature to let the superficiality of distance separate something as the love of your life. I don’t understand, I’m not sure if I can make her not break up over this, and I don’t want to have to convince her to stay, she should be sure of it herself, not trough me. I don’t know what to do, what to think, I just feel deceived, like everything she ever said was a lie.