u/Altruistic-Cow283

I, 22F, identify as a lesbian and have been dating 23NB for almost 2 years. We do not live together, they live with our friends and I live alone. They are disabled and so am i. I have bad mental health due to severe and complex truama. We are both not interested in sex, they have no libido from medications and i have childhood sexual abuse truama and therefore cannot have sex. We stick to romance and making out and the arrangement works for us. They had always been "emotionally unavailable" but to a milder degree and they were actively trying to be better.

In the last few weeks, my physical health has declined. I am in more pain and am becoming more distressed at the severity of my symptoms. I feel sad and fed up with being sick. Since the decline in my health, my partner has pulled away. They have become less affectionate and do not seem willing to support me. I am not asking for big things, just to fetch pain meds and make hot water bottles some cuddles and just general comfort. They make excuses to not help me and then a friend offers to do it instead. There has been multiple times I have been crying in bed with them and instead of comforting me, they roll over and go to sleep. I am suspected to have endometriosis, waiting for laparoscopy to confirm, but they don't seem to believe me and downplay my symptoms, saying i must just have a food intolerance. It feels as if they feel my struggles dont matter as much because they're in pain too. Ive had a conversation with them about all this and explained that I don't feel supported by them and nothing has changed

Im considering breaking up with them but im scared that I can't do any better. My, combined, disability, decline in health and inability to have sex make me feel like im unlovable and undesirable. I just want someone who is loving and understanding. Not having sex is a deal breaker for almost everyone and so I feel like I will never find anyone else.

Im also scared to be alone. Before I met them, I was completely isolated due to the abuse of my mother, she didnt let me have friends. So all my friends came from my partner. If I break up with them, I also lose all my friends and have no support system.

I don't know what to do. I don't feel like they actually love me anymore. Can someone help me figure this all out?

I have suspected gastroparesis. After almost 6 months of remission, thinking I was in the clear, I had an awful epsiode of debilitating stomach pain and nausea. We were supposed to go out to mini golf with our friends but I was not in a state to go. I wanted my partner to stay home with me but that felt selfish so I didnt say anything and they went without me. They promised they'd come home straight after so that I wanst alone because I was crying a lot about not wanting to be alone and feeling awful. I then got a message that "plans had changed" and they were going back to their friends house to play drinking games. I expressed that I want upset that they had left me when I was crying and wanted support and they basically said they didnt wanna talk about it rn cus they're out with our friends.

Am I the asshole here?

Edit: i feel hurt because, if i was in their position, I wouldn't have even gone to the mini golf, let alone also staying out for the rest.of the night

I have allthe symptoms of gastroparesis, nausea and stomach cramping that becomes debilitating after eating, feeling full quickly, partially regurgitating food or vomiting.

I have been tested for crohns, celiac, ibd, various forms of cancer, food intolerances, everything. Ive had tones of blood tests and ultrasounds. They've found nothing. I've done food diaries and cut things out my diet, there's no pattern except smaller meals cause less pain.

I have hEDS and I have friends with hEDS who said that gastroparesis is more common in people with hEDS. I have all the symptoms so it makes sense. I said this to my partner and they disagreed. They said im probably just not eating the correct food or I have an intolerance and suggested I do another food diary.

I feel really invalidated and just wanted to vent. They seem to constantly downplay my symptoms and blame them on me and say im doing something wrong. I thought I had found the answer and now idk what to think. I cant eat anything without feeling absolutely awful and it's just getting worse and worse. I cant work, I had to drop out of college, i can barely walk becahse of the pain a lot of the time. I'm really struggling and i feel upset that my problems are being put down to something as minor as a food intolerance.

IM IN THE UK

I have all the symptoms of endometriosis, including debilitating pain that occurs outside of periods and has spread to further up my torso and debilitating nausea. This could point to endometriosis spreading to other organs. My gp has referred me to gynecologist for a routine appt with a waitlist of 1.5 years. I *cannot* wait that long, ive been trying to get this referral for years already. The pain has become debilitating, i can't walk for longer than a minute or two, can't eat often due to severe nausea, can't work. I use a wheelchair and presented to my gp in my wheelchair. I explained the pain is debilitating but I feel like she doesn't really believe that it's as bad i say it is.

How do I get my gp to change my referral to urgent? I really believe this should be investigated quicker than it currently is. There are several things this could be, endometriosis, ovarian cysts, different forms of cancer. All of which I fit the symptoms for. You'd think that if you're displaying symptoms that match those of ovarian/uterine cancer, you'd get an urgent referral, right?

Edit: i keep requesting appointments to discuss this more with a gp but they keep refusing because ive been referred to gynae so "they'll take over'

I remember playing a game when I was younger, like 2015-2018 ish on an IOS phone. It was a story game, like Epsiode. The general premise is that you are trapped (?) in a castle with people who turn out to be vampires/ i think there was a werewolf and a wizard too. There is a cat who can talk, I think he used to be human, who helps you to find a way to escape but you end up falling in love with your chosen occult character. The game is in like an "anime" art style. It was called Blood + [something] im pretty sure. I remember loving this game, it was a dark romance/ fantasy I was a big fan of. Please help!