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I thought I was bisexual

When I was in class 11th I met a girl and we became bestfriend and I never felt such friendship before and we shared our secrets that we didn't tell anybody else , like this very strong friendship. She introduced me BTS . And when we're in class 12th I got to know she is bisexual . At that time we used to ship Jungkook and Tae from bts and we used to consider ourselves as them . Though I looked at this very casually as friendship. I used to get jealous if she prioritised anyone else than me and i wanted only to spent time with her alone .But then I started to think she might like me and is attracted to me . Then I also started wondering maybe i like her . At first she used to hold my hand i used to think as friendly affection but then I started to think maybe she liked me but I used to enjoy her attention. She used to suggest me manga and dramas where there were same gender couples. And i would also think maybe she thinks of us like that . Then when i used to see any such couple online in any drama or movie I used to think maybe it is us . I used to imagine her also in romantic songs but if i ever imagined kissing i felt uncomfortable and wrong . I never found her physically attractive and never wanted to have anything sexual . Sometimes i used to imagine her in love songs but it after sometimes felt uncomfortable and weird then I stopped. And then I got crush on a boy, who is my current boyfriend and we are in a happy relationship . I am straight and i also considered straight myself straight before also cause I only got crush on boys . And even now if i imagine being with a girl it grosses me out . I never got crush on my friend and never find sexually or physically attractive. But what was in that phase is making me overthink . Was I bi ? What do you people think .

When I was in class 11th I met a girl and we became bestfriend and I never felt such friendship before and we shared our secrets that we didn't tell anybody else , like this very strong friendship. She introduced me BTS . And when we're in class 12th I got to know she is bisexual . At that time we used to ship Jungkook and Tae from bts and we used to consider ourselves as them . Though I looked at this very casually as friendship. I used to get jealous if she prioritised anyone else than me and i wanted only to spent time with her alone .But then I started to think she might like me and is attracted to me . Then I also started wondering maybe i like her . At first she used to hold my hand i used to think as friendly affection but then I started to think maybe she liked me but I used to enjoy her attention. She used to suggest me manga and dramas where there were same gender couples. And i would also think maybe she thinks of us like that . Then when i used to see any such couple online in any drama or movie I used to think maybe it is us . I used to imagine her also in romantic songs but if i ever imagined kissing i felt uncomfortable and wrong . I never found her physically attractive and never wanted to have anything sexual . Sometimes i used to imagine her in love songs but it after sometimes felt uncomfortable and weird then I stopped. And then I got crush on a boy, who is my current boyfriend and we are in a happy relationship . I am straight and i also considered straight myself straight before also cause I only got crush on boys . And even now if i imagine being with a girl it grosses me out . I never got crush on my friend and never find sexually or physically attractive. But what was in that phase is making me overthink . Was I bi ? What do you people think .

Got exploited and manipulated on online dating app when I was a young teenager .

When I was young , most probably 14 , I was exploring dating apps , which was a new thing for me then . So i installed and dating app with a fake profile . There mssgs start to come and then I talked with a person , btw I just joined for nothing serious cause I knew love doesn't happen there and it was an very unpopular app . When I was talking with that person , he asked me to send boobs pic so I gave him from above of my clothes and then he again and again kept asking to send without clothes so I most probably that i remember I gave that pic in bra then he complimented and then I went from that chat and never talked to him . Then another time I think I gave boobs pic to another person , what i remember that I didn't took off the bra . So it would be total most probably 1 or 2 times in bra and 1 or 2 times with above cloth in total . I gave them cause I thought what would happen they r strangers and when I got validation from the first person I gave again the pics for validation . I thought I would get validation by this way . After that I understood that it's not right what I'm doing and then it never happened again after that . I regretted also . Now I'm 20 and in a healthy relationship and I'm Indian . My boyfriend is very kind and understands me . And this thing that I showed boobs before to someone it is eating me from inside . It's been more than 2 yrs with him nd when this memory come I often ignore it but this time this memory came and it is not going out of my head . It feels like I'm hiding something from him and betraying him which I didn't really . What should I do you people suggest . I'm feeling if I wouldn't tell him i will die in guilt and right now for somedays I'm constantly thinking abt this . I could share everything with him but this thing I'm not able to express .

When I was young , most probably 14 , I was exploring dating apps , which was a new thing for me then . So i installed and dating app with a fake profile . There mssgs start to come and then I talked with a person , btw I just joined for nothing serious cause I knew love doesn't happen there and it was an very unpopular app . When I was talking with that person , he asked me to send boobs pic so I gave him from above of my clothes and then he again and again kept asking to send without clothes so I most probably that i remember I gave that pic in bra then he complimented and then I went from that chat and never talked to him . Then another time I think I gave boobs pic to another person , what i remember that I didn't took off the bra . So it would be total most probably 1 or 2 times in bra and 1 or 2 times with above cloth in total . I gave them cause I thought what would happen they r strangers and when I got validation from the first person I gave again the pics for validation . I thought I would get validation by this way . After that I understood that it's not right what I'm doing and then it never happened again after that . I regretted also . Now I'm 20 and in a healthy relationship and I'm Indian . My boyfriend is very kind and understands me . And this thing that I showed boobs before to someone it is eating me from inside . It's been more than 2 yrs with him nd when this memory come I often ignore it but this time this memory came and it is not going out of my head . It feels like I'm hiding something from him and betraying him which I didn't really . What should I do you people suggest . I'm feeling if I wouldn't tell him i will die in guilt and right now for somedays I'm constantly thinking abt this . I could share everything with him but this thing I'm not able to express .