u/Altruistic_Eagle8802

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me. For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I searched on Google and I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadow and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 4 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I just need emotional support and kind words because my family doesn't think it's something serious and I wanna cry all the time.

Scriu aici pentru că simt că nu mai reușesc să funcționez în această perioadă. Nu caut un diagnostic medical, ci un sfat despre cum să fac față până voi afla ce se întâmplă.

[20F]i tocmai am fost admisă la facultate. Ar fi trebuit să fie una dintre cele mai frumoase perioade din viața mea, însă în loc să mă bucur de acest început, simt că tot viitorul meu este pus sub semnul întrebării.

Totul a început în urmă cu aproximativ 5-6 ani, când aveam 14-15 ani. Atunci au apărut dureri de cap foarte puternice și vedere dublă. La un moment dat durerile au dispărut, iar pentru că nu mă mai durea capul, nu s-au făcut investigații neurologice. Am fost de-a lungul timpului la mai mulți oftalmologi, deoarece am și strabism din copilărie.

În ultimele săptămâni însă a aparut un simptom nou legat de vederea mea,am cautat pe Google,posibil să fie o afectiune rară,dar gravă, care m-a speriat foarte tare deoarece durerile puternice de cap au revenit,iar vederea mea s-a schimbat,avand și stări de rău.

Mă gândesc că există o tumoră cerebrală,cancer cerebral, care început atunci cu o evoluție lentă și, pentru că nu a fost descoperită și tratată, ar evoluat în timp și acum s-a transformat într-una de stadiu terminal.

Am programare la oftalmolog,doar miercurea viitoare,iar speranța mea este că voi putea face un RMN cât mai curând pentru a afla cauza acestor simptome.

Am mare nevoie de puțin sprijin, de câteva cuvinte încurajatoare sau de un sfat despre cum să gestionez această frică, pentru că în ultimele zile nu mai pot dormi.

Anxietatea mă paralizează complet. Mi-e îngrozitor de frică de ceea ce ar putea arăta consultația și RMN-ul. Ar trebui să mă bucur că încep facultatea, dar în schimb mă simt copleșită de teamă. Nu mai sunt în stare să fac nimic.

Bună tuturor. [20F] Scriu această postare pentru că sunt absolut îngrozită în acest moment și nu mai știu cum să fac față. Tocmai am fost admisă la facultate și ar trebui să încep cursurile în octombrie, dar simt că viața mea se destramă.

Probabil că nici măcar nu voi putea să duc actele în original din cauza a ceea ce mi se întâmplă.

În ultimii 5-6 ani, de când aveam 14-15 ani, am avut diverse simptome neurologice, cum ar fi vederea dublă. Pe atunci aveam dureri puternice de cap, dar în cele din urmă au dispărut, astfel că totul a rămas netratat și a fost ignorat de părinții mei, deoarece nu mai aveam dureri până de curând. Nu am făcut niciodată investigații imagistice. Am fost la mai mulți medici oftalmologi, iar ei nu au considerat că este ceva în neregulă, deoarece am și strabism din naștere.

Acum însă, lucrurile au luat o întorsătură foarte înfricoșătoare. Am căutat pe Google și cred că am început să experimentez poliopie cerebrală. Mai exact, când mă uit la televizor, văd siglele deschise la culoare și subtitrările albe cu o umbră sau o imagine dublă, deplasată fie în sus, fie în jos. Exact același lucru se întâmplă și pe telefon atunci când este în modul întunecat: textul deschis la culoare are aceste umbre care mă sperie foarte tare, la fel și lumina roșie a butonului de pornire al televizorului.

Am o programare la un medic oftalmolog și sper ca, după consultație, să mă trimită cât mai repede la un RMN. Sunt îngrozită de gândul că aș putea avea un cancer cerebral în stadiul IV. Știu că o tumoră în stadiul IV probabil nu m-ar fi lăsat să supraviețuiesc netratată timp de 6 ani, dar mă tem că ar fi putut începe cu ani în urmă ca o tumoră cu evoluție lentă și grad scăzut, atunci când au apărut primele dureri de cap, iar acum să se fi transformat într-un glioblastom secundar, deoarece durerile au revenit,.iar vederea mea s-a schimbat atât de mult.

Anxietatea mă paralizează complet. Mi-e îngrozitor de frică de ceea ce ar putea arăta consultația și RMN-ul. Ar trebui să mă bucur că încep facultatea, însă în schimb mă simt copleșită de teamă. Nu mai sunt în stare să fac nimic.

Am mare nevoie de puțin sprijin pentru că în ultimele zile nu mai pot dormi.

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me. For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I searched on Google and I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadow and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 4 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I am not asking for medical advice. I just need emotional support and kind words because my family doesn't think it's something serious and I wanna cry all the time. Please, even one answer would help me

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me. For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I searched on Google and I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadow and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 4 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I am not asking for medical advice. I just need emotional support and kind words because my family doesn't think it's something serious and I wanna cry all the time.

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [ 20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me.For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadows/multiplication and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 4 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I really need some support, kind words, or advice on how to handle this fear because I can't sleep these days.

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me.For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadows/multiplication and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 3 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I really need some support, kind words, or advice on how to handle this fear because I can't sleep these days. My appointment it's just next week, on Wednesday.

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me.For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadows/multiplication and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 3 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I really need some support, kind words, or advice on how to handle this fear because I can't sleep these days. My appointment it's just next week, on Wednesday.

Hi everyone. Sorry if there are any mistakes, English is not my first language. [20F] I'm writing this because I am absolutely terrified right now and I don't know how to cope. I was just accepted 3rd on the admission list at my university and I am supposed to start college in October,but I feel like my life is falling apart.

I probably won't even be able to enroll because of what is happening to me.For the last 5 to 6 years,since I was 14-15, I’ve had various brain neurological symptoms,such as double vision. I had severe headaches back then, but they eventually stopped, so everything was left untreated and ignored by my parents because I didn't have any pain anymore until recently. I never got scans,I had some appointments to several ophthalmologists and they didn't think something is wrong because I also have strabism since birth.

But now, things have taken a very scary turn. I think have started experiencing cerebral polyopia. Specifically, when I look at the TV, I see light-colored logos and white subtitles with a ghost-like shadow or duplicate image, either shifted upward or downward. The exact same thing happens on my phone when it is on dark mode the light text has these terrifying shadows/multiplication and with the red power button light on my TV.

I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist coming up, and I hope they will send me to get an urgent MRI immediately after they see my eyes. I’m scared to death that I might have Stage 4 brain cancer right now. I know a true Stage 4 tumor wouldn't have let me survive untreated for 6 years, but I am terrified that it started as a slow, low-grade tumor years ago,when the headaches first started,and has now mutated into a Stage 3 like a secondary glioblastoma because the pain returned, I have nausea and my vision changed so badly.

The anxiety is completely paralyzing me. I am so scared of what the doctor and the MRI might show. I should be celebrating starting college, but instead, I feel overwhelmed by fear.I cant do anything.

I really need some support, kind words, or advice on how to handle this fear because I can't sleep these days. My appointment it's just next week, on Wednesday.