u/AlwaysLioness

I feel stupid. I wish I knew more about wealth/investing. I want to learn how to save, not blow money. I don't even work, I"m studying. I am desperately pleading for ways to really secure and build money. What should I do? Put it into my M1 portfolio? Robinhood? A stock? QQQ? Crypto? I'm lost, I'm only 23. College didn't teach me this stuff, I majored in science.

I have never been cheated on, till now.
I’m F23, situationship = M36

A week ago I prayed.
“Dear god, please remove this man from my life if he’s going to ruin it”

Had a situationship with someone for about 7-8 months now, eventually became off/on, and we were on the on phase again. He’s a physical therapist.

He got upset at me two weeks ago because a man whom I’ve never met (I used to text this guy, but I’ve never met him) called me while we were hooking up. Situationship = a narcissist, tells me to call him back to prove to him I’ve never met this guy & wanted to see if I followed his instagram / if I had hinge. I proved to him I didn’t.

When I asked him why he comes back to me after we break it off, he always says “even though you insult me, I know deep down you’re a good person.”

Week after that, we were hooking up in a clinic (which he rents the space from a friend).
Note, he works at 3 other clinics. I accidentally locked us out the door of the clinic in the building (his car keys were inside the clinic). It’s 9:30 pm on a weekday. He has to call the owner/his friend for a spare key, while situationship is attempting to unlock the lockbox of the building, he’s on FaceTime & I see the messages app open and as he’s holding his phone I see two women who he’s muted.

He was ACTIVELY flirting & seeing 3 other women. He was flirting with all of us at the same time, our text threads were above each other. This is why I got infections all the time.

I stayed quiet as he yells at me & I laugh. He gets annoyed. I drive him to the owner’s home. I knew the owners address at this point, & I knew the clinic location & name too. I also kept repeating in my head as he’s screaming in my car, “he thinks I could never be malicious, but he has no idea.”

Idk if this is the Scorpio in me, or whatever. I had two routes:
A) text the girls on instagram since I know their names now & warn them
B) out myself & out situationship to the clinic owner

My situationship has non consensually filmed me. He has refused to delete them.
I told myself, if he deletes them and agrees to delete them, I won’t do anything.

after we got the key and unlocked the door, I got home (20 mins later) then I called him. Texted him. Nothing. Then I called over and over. Spam texted. I was going insane he wasn’t picking up, I was pissed. I knew he set my messages & calls on DND.

I left 100 missed calls. Because I truly know I was hanging on for dear life, I did NOT want to do what i was about to do. I decided because he didn’t answer I’m choosing option B. I gave him a deadline.

Set an alarm at 5 AM, texted the clinic owner/his friend about what “really happened” and that I was NOT a patient. I apologized, and said I will never show up to the clinic / nor am I seeing him again anyways.

I chose the most vile thing for this man. He deserved it. And it gives me peace. I have been so skilled at pressing these narcissists buttons, I’m convinced I get sent to them to learn that love doesn’t exist & to teach them a lesson.

His ego was insulted: the friend now knew, the friend revoked his clinic access, and the friend texted me back saying “I appreciate you telling me, you’re a good person” & I sent that screenshot to the situationship the next morning.

He blew up in my face. Like threatened to come to my house. So I issued a trespass warning.

Men care more about their EGOS more than ANYTHING. They don’t care if you cry, sob, they can still sleep.

I know it scars him, i’m 23, i was the sweet young hookup, his roster is around his age. he not only lost the clinic, he has to sit with that embarrassing shit his whole life, a 23 year old was capable of something despicable he couldn’t even imagine.
I wouldn’t have done it if that were the only clinic he worked at. I thought about this very carefully. He only rented out the space at that location, he can easily rent out space elsewhere & he also works for 3 other clinics.
He said he’s going to come to my home & issue a restraining order. I didn’t respond, nor did I care. I realized these were his empty threats & he actually can’t do anything to me because I NEVER let my guard down. NEVER. He threatened to show up to my dad’s work. Good thing I lied where my dad worked, have fun doing that. Be careful, don’t be naive that people like this exist.

I read that he cheated on his ex, and i am convinced she prayed for a lesson to hit him.

Cheating & Lying to a partner. Will always. Bring back. Bad. Karma.
I didn’t care if he were talking to other girls, but talking and actively having raw sex and spreading infections is DANGEROUS.
People don’t realize how bad that is.

I can go to bed now, it obviously sucks that I have another stupid infection since I last saw him. And the pain makes me want to contact the girls, but I think I’ve done enough.
Those girls can figure it out on their own, they’re literally older.
I’m safe & I’m out & that prayer worked wonders.

We have not been in contact since that incident, I have no reason to go back. I’d be surprised if he reached out, hopefully I traumatized him enough.

felt like this would be helpful for people who struggle, like me:

Took me ages,

but this is what I say the moment I doubt:
“my doubts just mean my manifestations are coming to me quicker”

GAMECHANGER.

Absolutely helps me with law of assumption/manifestation techniques. I feel SO much more optimistic & hopeful the way I perceive life now.
Hope this helps you too!