my parents are putting lot of pressure on marriage. i am 31 year old and till now either i have rejected the proposal or i called the boy or i told him in person that i cant marry.
but every time my father came to know about this and each time they create a huge drama. i am going through immense pressure and everything. they wont let me leave my house or have a phone. i am only allowed to have a laptop.
i have been depressed for quite some time and currently on medication.
now they have found the match with this IITian doing job in banglore.
they are hell bent on it. And will do anything just so i could marry him.
i told them that this time i wont meet the guy and my father started to have an attack. He was admitted in hospital and my brother had warned me if something happens to my father he will k*ll me.
i still tried to text this guy on insta, fb and gmail. I dont know why he hasnt responded. Maybe he is not a social media person.
i am thinking of cutting my hair very short so no guy ever marry me. but i think my father will again admit in the hospital due to this.
should i do this?
or is there any other thing i could do?
i am even thinking of cutting my finger off or blinding myself.