u/Angelic_Aspen

I’m not even kidding every single man that I talk to always ends up ghosting me. I was even talking to a guy that I had so much in common with. We both really hit it off, but even he ended up ghosting me. Men usually ghost after they see pictures of me and realize that I am not skinny. I weigh 240 lbs and always struggled with my weight. I’m at the point where I’m accepting the fact that men will never like me and I need to move on. I think I need to accept the fact that I’m going to be single forever. Love doesn’t exist for me like it does my friends or anyone else. I know I’m sounding negative, but it is just very frustrating.

I don’t have any friends, family, or anyone to talk to nearby. I can’t even trust venting to my coworkers because I’m pretty sure they talk about me behind my back. It really bothers me that people that I work with go home to someone that they can vent to, that has their back, and makes them feel better. No one cares about me or checks on me. I feel like I have no one to talk to and it really affects me. I’m pretty sure my co-teacher went and vented to another teacher about a mistake that I made regarding a student and parent. I even watched her stick her head out of another teacher’s classroom to make sure I was gone. She gets to go home to her husband and get support too. I have the mindset that if anything were to happen to me or if I disappeared no one would care about me. No one has ever been there for me or bothered to check up on me. I just wish someone had my back and was there to help me through things. I’m already a self-conscious person and just want reassurance from someone that I make mistakes and that’s Ok.

I seriously give up dating and I’m starting to accept the fact that I’m better off single. Every man that I talk to either doesn’t like me because of my body or if I do find someone they are still close to their ex. I was talking to a guy that I had a great connection with and we had so much in common. He's exactly my type and everything, but then he kept bringing up his ex and sent me a picture of them. He also mentioned that they still talk. I think the dating pool closed for me a long time ago. I’m just going to be single the rest of my life.

I have thyroid issues which causes me to miss my period or have irregular periods. The last time I had a normal period was over a year ago. I was just wondering if I have irregular periods is it still possible to get pregnant? If I were to get pregnant would that cause the baby to have health issues? I’ve always wondered about this. I don’t want to have kids yet, but would like to in the future. I’m not currently taking medication for my thyroid. I was talking birth control to help with periods, but it was making me sick.

I had a lot of issues with parents teaching 4th grade last year as a first year teacher. I get a lot of dirty looks from other parents because of it. Some of my students parents from last year refuse to speak to me or are very rude to me. I teach in a small district where everyone is mostly related or knows everyone. This parent tonight that gave me the death glare started drama on Facebook last year because she didn’t like how things were handled in 4th grade. Her daughter didn’t turn in her homework and usually fell asleep in class because she would stay up late at night. I always informed Mom about our homework policy and that it would be a 0 if not turned in. This is to prepare them for 5th grade because it gets a lot harder and students need to learn how to be independent. The funny thing is that her daughter always comes and visits me. She even stopped by to show me her dress and nails. I’ve just noticed that small districts are the hardest to teach in because everyone knows who everyone is and this causes rumors to spread. On a positive note, I am teaching 1st Grade for my 2nd year of teaching and I’ve had a great class with supportive parents. I’m going to miss this class a lot and they are probably one of my favorite classes.