u/AnimeQueenAliza

Telepaths inflict either positive or negative effects on people they continuously read from. We see Loid, Melinda, and the Grandpa Neighbor think something along the lines of "that sinking feeling is back". The "sinking feeling" is the residue of mind-reading.  Which is how >!the grandpa next door realized Anya was a telepath since he was shown to have the sinking feeling and then immediately realized she was 007!<.

Anya is a positive telepath. Both in her attitude and the affect she had on people. She positively influences Loid and Damian, breaking down their walls with cuteness and unknown help from her powers. That's why people are happier when they interact with her.

 Donovan, however, is a negative telepath. His mood and the way people act around him are both negative. How his family shuts down when they are around him. Negative telepaths also chip away at the sanity of the people they read from. Hence why Melinda and Demetrius act the way they do. Damian hasn't interacted with his father enough for it to affect him as much as the other two, which is why Anya's positive energy seeps into him easier. 

So with Merize, we were told that her body couldn't stand the strain of the netherworld. She was only there for roughly a year and change, right? She was showing fatigue and side effects of being in the netherworld almost immediately. Iruma, on the other hand, has been in the netherworld a little over a year(I think) and hasn't shown to have any issues adapting to the netherworld. Is it just his extreme adaptability from his life in the human world, his usage of mana, or something else?

I'm 16f, almost 17(I turn 17 tomorrow) and I feel like everyone I thought cared doesn't.

A little background: I have been online school most of my life and my mother has not helped me keep up a social life. My dad is out of the picture but I have a stepfamily. I am part of Scouts BSA, so I have a meeting a week with them. I also go to my local church's youth group(I'm an atheist, but I am extremely lonely). I don't get out of the house much besides those two things each week and errands.

My father was extremely abusive and is out of the picture now. He had been sexually abusive towards me. When I finally said something back in 2020, he was arrested. Thing is, I kinda feel like I keep losing everyone I care about. After my father's arrest, my mother(who wasn't a very present parent in my life because she was supporting us financially) went into therapy and started healing, but she still wasn't present. My brother(older by 3 years) and I were each other's rocks during the abuse, so we were close, but after my father's arrest and my brother got into therapy, we started drifting apart while also trying to figure out a sibling relationship that wasn't forced incest(my father would force him to help my father "use" me). So to my brain, which was still trauma-bonded(still is but I'm working through it), I lost the one present parent(my father), the non-present parent(my mother), and the person I was closest to(my brother).

After my father's arrest, I made some friends during the early days of being with my troop. I had two friends. One, we'll call her Kat, was my best friend for about a year. Then she and my brother dated briefly, then broke up. They stayed friends. Then Kat got in trouble with her parents and was only allowed to have contact with three friends while grounded, she had to block the rest. I was on the blocked list. My brother wasn't. The second friend I had also briefly dated my brother and would only come over to my house for him afterwards. Then they broke up and she blocked me. I grew a resentment for my brother after that because to my mind, he would date them and then they would stop being friends with me and choose him. Kat and my brother have since become best friends and are even roommates. My brother also lived with her and her family for a year and a half (which was from when he was 16-ish until just after his 18th birthday) before an incident forced him to spend half a year back at home before actually moving out with her(they aren't dating, just friends). Thing is, two years ago, my brother had gone on a two trips totaling three weeks. During those trips, I spent more time with Kat than I had in three years prior. After my brother got back, whenever I tried to hang out with her, she would invite my brother whether or not she asked if he could come and it ended up with them doing the activity I wanted to do with her and me pretty much third-wheeling.

I then joined a club with my school and made a lot of friends through it. Even after the club ended, we stayed friends. Then one of them said I was being too dramatic in a group chat I rarely messaged in, then blocked me. Her sister, who was also friends with us, also blocked me. I had become best friends with this one girl who is still my best friend now(long distance best friend, though). She started in-person school last school year and I feel like she's still my best friend, but I don't feel like I'm hers. I'm glad she has friends at her new school, and I get her parents are strict and ground her often so she can't text me, but it feels like every time I try to schedule a day for us to hang out(I can drive now), it feels like everything is trying to make it so we can't. Back in October, I planned to drive to the city she lives in(I have to go through a mountain) and the day before I was supposed to drive there, the entire pass got snowed up and we had to cancel. The next time was back in March, I tried planning for us to hang out during Spring Break, but her family was opening a new part of their restaurant and she had to help out. Then I saw a thing for a concert for a band I really wanted to go to, which is in the same city her grandmother lives in, so I asked if she wanted to go. She said she did, but she had to ask her parents. Her parents said no, which I get parents being strict, but the way it came across made it sound like it was her not wanting to hurt my feelings.

I have another friend who goes to the same youth group as I do, she's become my in-person best friend. Thing is, she is a year younger than me and it shows. When she wants to rant about a new hobby or interest, I actively listen and try to learn about her interests. Thing is, the few times I've wanted to rant about my interests, she's listened with the same enthusiasm as listening to background music. On of the few times was back in October, our youth group was doing a Halloween party and I was dressed as my favorite DC character(Jason Todd's Red Hood) and I had wanted to rant about him and the rest of the Batfamily. She was on her phone the whole time, not paying attention at all, and she cut me off (I think trying to be funny) and said "I've never heard you talk this much." I kinda laughed it off and she had said to keep going, but when I did, she walked away (we were sitting on the couch, so it wasn't just her being distracted, she literally got up and walked away). Another time was back in January where she had been ranting about something she just got into, I was being supportive and attentive. Then her rant fully finished and we went on our phones for a bit. I found something I found cool and tried showing her. She barely glanced at it and said "I don't really care" in a tone that was not meant to just be making fun. I've since talked to her about how it feels she doesn't really care about my interests because I'm interested in them unless she's interested in them too. She hasn't really fixed the behavior, though.

Back in 2023, I had an inpatient stay around this time in the year after being in the hospital for two weeks because of a SH attempt involving aspirin. I was sent to a hospital 3 hours away. While there, my mother started dating while I was in the hospital. She started dating Kat's mother. Then also Kat's father(they're polyamorous). Despite what you may think, that summer was actually really nice. It actually felt like I had a loving family. I called her family my step-ish family. Then Kat's mom's ex-boyfriend(a narcissistic piece of shit that completely infected my stepmom and freeloaded off of them for most of the time he was back) came back and she took him back and life went to shit for the next two and a half years until this last January when his mother fell ill and he had to go back to his home state to caretake her. During those years he was here, though, he completely recked the family I finally had with my step-family.

So it feels like I keep losing. And losing. And losing.