u/Anna-Bee-1984

Does anyone actually like this? I bought this from the mega drop shop in a color supposedly for light, cool skin and it’s so orange and dark and it smells horrible. Also it’s so incredibly oily. I don’t even have oily skin and I’m shining like a crystal ball and feel my pores clog the longer I wear it. It’s so bad. It was $20 too so not exactly cheap. I think it has completely oxidized and is essentially unusable even if the color was corrected.

Hi all. I was wondering knew of any attorneys who could assist me with a case involving denial of a DODD waiver and discriminatory treatment from staff. Legal Aid has been contacted and said they cannot assist. Disability Rights Ohio assisted with the appeal and cannot represent, only provide advocacy services. State Complaints and MUIs have been filed. I’ve contacted autism connections for resources. Every other attorney I’ve contacted only works with special needs planning or works for the DODD themselves.

Hi all. Has anyone here experienced a lifetime of institutional discrimination and abuse due to a misdiagnosis and diagnostic overshadowing. In 1999 at the age of 15 I was misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder ultimately resulting in forced chemical restraint and isolation when I had a meltdown upon learning I would be forced to return home to my abusive parents and high school. This diagonsis was withheld from me and over shadowed suspected learning disability’s, PTSD, OCD, and ODD (ie PDA). Fast forward several years and it was used to ignore me in treatment, justify my parents and sisters abuse, deny me treatment for ADHD (diagnosed 5x since the age of 18) on completely unsubstantiated grounds of drug seeking behavior. After noticing this pattern I left this institution and their behavior was later found to be medical abuse upon submitting proof of a legal 2/3 autism diagnosis made at the age of 39 that I initiated myself.

I wish it stopped there, but it didn’t. At several additional hospitals I was denied admission to programs and never told about this, subjected to egregious verbal abuse by therapists, and upon submitting proof of the borderline diagnosis being incorrect and explained by some significant unsupported autism I was told I showed signs of BPD. One intern who saw me during an intake at the program who denied me admission likely due to BPD and my frustration that they would not let me use my LEGAL medical card during a MENTAL HEALTH not substance abuse IOP, went so far to diagnose me with Antisocial Personality disorder with absolutely no basis for doing so (I don’t have anti-social behavior and no childhood history of a conduct disorder). Making this especially disturbing is that the psychologist in charge of this program was a forensic psychologist meaning he saw AsPD and BPD in criminal contexts. Also in both this situation the situation where they refused to correct my record despite proof of it being an incorrect diagnosis the patient advocates and quality control people ignored me.

And now…it’s happening again. I met criteria to be approved for DODD services last summer, but when I applied for a waiver I was treated like an annoying person who was faking it, my safety issues were addressed as intentional, and my other needs related to autism. Lo and behold BPD was listed on my records despite me never telling them. And now disclosure of severe meltdowns resulting in SIB, screaming, and throwing things with the most recent meltdown resulting from being dropped from my insurance.

I’m so profoundly beat down from people not believing me and especially now that I have objective, clinical proof of the severity of my autism, a diagnosis not a damn mental health professional ever suggested to me. These are people who were supposed to be safe, but instead continue to subject me to more trauma over and above the trauma I was already experiencing.

As for the DODD stuff I am in contact with an attorney, but given my track record with trying to defend myself and seek accountability for these abusers it likely will not go anywhere.

I’m just so exhausted and feel so profoundly isolated and misunderstood because the only people who can begin to understand what this does to someone are those who have experienced it and most of those are not around any more

Edit…After speaking to my therapist we both feel that a borderline misdiagnosis that exists on my record unnecessarily is being used against me. I have already spoken to an attorney about the lack of waiver services, but will also be speaking to
him about filing a discrimination lawsuit due to this. This fucking misdiagnosis which was first placed on me at the age of 15 has been used my entire life to blame me, deny services, invalidate and blame me for trauma, and subject me to copious amounts of emotional and even physical abuse (in the form of forced chemical restraint and isolation as a minor) throughout my life and I’m
tired of it.

Hi all. I am yet again dealing with an institution of support providers fucking me over and being put in a position of being punished. My entire life dealing every single “helping” institution I’ve reached out to for support has harmed me. Between decades of diagnostic overshadowing and weaponized misdiagnosis used to discredit the relational abuse and blame me for my reactivity, to unfounded accusations leading
to treatment denial, to actual
verbal and medical abuse starting at 15 when I was forcibly drugged and isolated because I had a meltdown superficially scratched my arm in an attempt to get people to believe my home life was unsafe, to being thrown
out on the streets with $18
in my pocket after my car being
taken and my support system taken from me. I’ve even been blamed for reacting to abuse and unethical issues from incompetent therapists that nearly killed me and had regulatory boards treat me like the “problematic borderline” for reporting. Now I am the problem for reporting self harm to my county DODD and having it ignored. Nevermind this is the same agency that denied me access to supports because of my feigned competence despite a clinical assessment and their own assessment showing level 2/3 autism with level 3 support needs noted in the very areas I’m noted as “having support needs met” with my partner a 2x a month support group and non-existent services through my insurance. They even denied me access to funding to pay for the community support needs because I live with my boyfriend not my abusive parents who were also CLEARLY noted as unsafe people in my assessment.

But no…again I am the problem for even lowering myself to ask for help with autism with fucking profound support needs despite having advanced education. It is clearly stated in my assessment from 3 different people that I have no emotional regulation and here I am having yet another email expressing my frustration and showing pictures of self harm because of that frustration ignored.

So here we go. Yet another regulatory agency to tell me I’m the problem. Yet another lawyer who won’t be able to work through these ironclad systems that are designed to prevent access to services. Yet another person who sees my one solid support person and ignores that I have severe autism that went misdiagnosed until I was 39 and have been subjected to decades of abuse from pretty much everyone as a result because no one fucking could see through the adaptive competence that I have been performing since I was 5 in order to survive the abuse from my family, peers, employers, and helping institutions. And now the very same institution that is supposed to be providing the direct services to people with LEVEL 3 AUTISM to “promote independence” is literally going against their own findings and making me out to be an incompetent and lazy asshole who should just go to a support group with people who all have supports because someone actually saw them and cared enough to see them struggle as a child. And now they are breaking their own laws by not even responding to fucking self harm and tell me that a reduction in support “better meets my needs”.

Oh one more thing. On the occasion that this lack of support has become far more serious than just my usual biting in frustration or flashbacks that last for days, often triggered by institutional failures, I go to the hospital and the whole process of me being told I’m borderline and an unreliable witness and exaggerating everything or using autism as an excuse starts over again and again and again. Been dealing with it all my fucking life.

So here we go..,another lawyer (I’m already working with my second lawyer in 4 years to deal with the tax issues that my defendant in an employment discrimination lawsuit caused). Another advocate that can’t get past the wall of beaurcracy and already worked with this agency only for them to deny me services. More institutions and people in positions of power to just get basic humanity. All the while the PTSD gets worse.

Hi all. I am yet again dealing with an institution of support providers fucking me over and being put in a position of being punished. My entire life dealing every single “helping” institution I’ve reached out to for support has harmed me. Between decades of diagnostic overshadowing and weaponized misdiagnosis used to discredit the relational abuse and blame me for my reactivity, to unfounded accusations leading
to treatment denial, to actual
verbal and medical abuse starting at 15 when I was forcibly drugged and isolated because I had a meltdown superficially scratched my arm in an attempt to get people to believe my home life was unsafe, to being thrown
out on the streets with $18
in my pocket after my car being
taken and my support system taken from me. I’ve even been blamed for reacting to abuse and unethical issues from incompetent therapists that nearly killed me and had regulatory boards treat me like the “problematic borderline” for reporting. Now I am the problem for reporting self harm to my county DODD and having it ignored. Nevermind this is the same agency that denied me access to supports because of my feigned competence despite a clinical assessment and their own assessment showing level 2/3 autism with level 3 support needs noted in the very areas I’m noted as “having support needs met” with my partner a 2x a month support group and non-existent services through my insurance. They even denied me access to funding to pay for the community support needs because I live with my boyfriend not my abusive parents who were also CLEARLY noted as unsafe people in my assessment.

But no…again I am the problem for even lowering myself to ask for help with autism with fucking profound support needs despite having advanced education. It is clearly stated in my assessment from 3 different people that I have no emotional regulation and here I am having yet another email expressing my frustration and showing pictures of self harm because of that frustration ignored.

So here we go. Yet another regulatory agency to tell me I’m the problem. Yet another lawyer who won’t be able to work through these ironclad systems that are designed to prevent access to services. Yet another person who sees my one solid support person and ignores that I have severe autism that went misdiagnosed until I was 39 and have been subjected to decades of abuse from pretty much everyone as a result because no one fucking could see through the adaptive competence that I have been performing since I was 5 in order to survive the abuse from my family, peers, employers, and helping institutions. And now the very same institution that is supposed to be providing the direct services to people with LEVEL 3 AUTISM to “promote independence” is literally going against their own findings and making me out to be an incompetent and lazy asshole who should just go to a support group with people who all have supports because someone actually saw them and cared enough to see them struggle as a child. And now they are breaking their own laws by not even responding to fucking self harm and tell me that a reduction in support “better meets my needs”.

Oh one more thing. On the occasion that this lack of support has become far more serious than just my usual biting in frustration or flashbacks that last for days, often triggered by institutional failures, I go to the hospital and the whole process of me being told I’m borderline and an unreliable witness and exaggerating everything or using autism as an excuse starts over again and again and again. Been dealing with it all my fucking life.

So here we go..,another lawyer (I’m already working with my second lawyer in 4 years to deal with the tax issues that my defendant in an employment discrimination lawsuit caused). Another advocate that can’t get past the wall of beaurcracy and already worked with this agency only for them to deny me services. More institutions and people in positions of power to just get basic humanity. All the while the PTSD gets worse.

Hi all. What did you score from the Mega drop shop? I picked up some curly hair products from deva curl and R+Co

Anyone have an idea when more spoilers will go live? I spent a ton of money on add ons last month and Im not knocked out by the spoilers i’ve seen already for either box so I may skip this month. I don’t want to miss anything fantastic. If I get the original only I can get the extra products in add on right?

I know ipsy has been getting alot of hate lately, but I wanted to share something that customer service did right. I was charged for all 3 boxes this month. When I reached out to ipsy the reimbursed me for my extra box and let me keep the products.

I have a question about add ons for ultimate. Is the option to include these given before or after the box reveal? I don’t want duplicates?

Hi all. I have read that fibro is non-progressive, but mine seems to be getting worse. I also have back issues that no one is taking seriously.

Does anyone else have fibro that gets worse year after year?

Does anyone have any guesses for choice groupings for ultimate? I

saw a good deal on the ND blush palette, but don’t want to waste my money if it’s in a choice grouping where that is the best option or if it’s gonna be less than $15 on add ons

Thoughts?

Hi All. If I skip original this month can I still get ultimate? I have extra as well. I’d rather put that $15 towards add ons or the mega drop shop.,

Hi all. Has anyone experienced some pain relief with a GLP1? I have lumbar stenosis with claudication and my pain and ability to stand/walk seems to be better at 5mg zepbound. I still get really tired, but the overall

pain is better.