u/Antique_Situation878

My friend here who apparently is versed in shastras and vedas says Manu smriti is in the higher order priority/hierarchy compared the Srimad Bhagavat Gita.

According to his logic, certain purana mentions order or Shruti > Smriti > Purana etc. So manu smriti being a smriti, and Bhagavad Gita being a purana the order has to be vedas> Manu smriti > Bhagavatam & Bhagavad Gita

While id argue that there’s no way a text like Manu smriti could be compared to Srimad Bhagavad Gita which was (from my knowledge) a direct dialogue between God and human, transcribed by purest souls in highest states along with the Bhagavat puran and Mahabharatam. It’s just technically impossible with any logic applied.

But he doesnt want to understand the pressing issue of restoring a text as old as Manu smriti, interpolation and inappropriate interpretation associated with it along with contradictory statements within the text itself.

He says that he needs a shatric proof and can’t take my argument simply cuz it’s my “personal” belief.
He will only listen to a shastra vakyam and that nowhere in shastras its mentioned that Bhagavat Gita is superior to any smriti ? And he argues that it’s not a smriti but strictly a puran. And I’m not someone who studies other shastras, just the three above mentioned texts- Bhagavatam, Mahabharat and Bhagavatam. So if either of us are missing something please do enlighten us 🙏 thank you

Time and again people have highlighted the importance of guru and diksha for chanting certain verses and establishing the right connection with the deity and also for guidance throughout the process. I purely want to do this cuz I feel like certain forms of Maa are trying to establish a connection but I’m not doing enough to respond/ receive them due to ignorance. I watched a few videos that say some take Shiv for their guru, some take Skanda. It’s been a few weeks since I started establishing connection with Bhairav- using just the naam jap and writing, listening to Kaal Bhairav Ashtakam. The power it gives me is very specific and indescribable. So far I did “feel” some power but communication itself is almost none.

Now matter how much I thank Adi Shankaracharya it won't be enough, he's really something! Every single song I've been drawn to since childhood (example -aigiri nandini) is HIS lyricism I recently realised it. I literally can't thank him enough - his words and sentences feel like they're piercing my soul. They really do channel the deity's power.

So is there any way can one imagine a guru ? Like for example is it possible to beg for Ramakrishna Paramahans as guru or even Adi Shankaracharya ?
Please don't mock me I'm just genuinely curious they've contributed a lot to the society do their souls still go around helping people in need? Or is there a way to channelise their energy? For instance if I use Bhairav ashtakam for chanting does that mean Adi Shankaracharya is helping me create a connection and is it fair ?

PS: at this point I’m not using any Sankalp or Diya or dhoop etc and I use timer for jap- kindly drop your opinion/ advise regarding upgrading my naam jap to a saadhna. Thank you for reading this far !

Ever since I downloaded 2 VPNs my laptop’s internet has become slow. Websites are buffering which is very odd and it has become such a hassle to play any p8r@cy website even without turning the VPN on.
What might be the cause ?

If anyone is willing to take the amboss group discount kindly let me know- 30+ student applications will fetch a whopping 40% discount which will almost bring the price down to m@rrow until residency ends.
We can apply under the same medical association or something please reach out asap- the Qbank tracking is too good for me to miss out on.

Did anyone here opt for hospital administration through neet pg ? I wanna explore this option in depth cuz I’ve finally lost passion towards this one specific clinical branch and idc at this point (" if this has a rewarding non-toxic career scope with good work life balance I’d like to go down this route.

Kindly let me know about preferred colleges, concerned degrees,cut offs and scope of emigration cuz I'm fking sick of this country’s economy and wanna have an alternative back up (just in case I suddenly don't wanna stay here anymore). Btw I have an English IELTS certification that will expire soon(wanted to go down the plab route two years ago before the job scope declined rapidly so I just have that certification lying).

Thank you! Sorry if this sounds demotivating/ arrogant but I've always considered a career switch since I have a zero sense of belonging in this field and always felt the grind wasn't rewarding enough-one can only sustain as long as they're MAD obsessed with this profession, is a workaholic and has enough emotional and financial support from family. I wanna stop being delulu about trying to reach my clinical rank goal and just wake up to reality. Cuz the last time I was grinding it was just cuz I was a simple sheep in herd who didn’t explore any other option(and just went with what society expected from me) AND AM regretting till date.

Did anyone here opt for hospital administration through neet pg ? I wanna explore this option in depth cuz I’ve finally lost passion towards this one specific clinical branch and idc at this point (" if this has a rewarding non-toxic career scope with good work life balance I’d like to go down this route.

Kindly let me know about preferred colleges, concerned degrees,cut offs and scope of emigration cuz I'm fking sick of this country’s economy and wanna have an alternative back up (just in case I suddenly don't wanna stay here anymore). Btw I have an English IELTS certification that will expire soon(wanted to go down the plab route two years ago before the job scope declined rapidly so I just have that certification lying).

Thank you! Sorry if this sounds demotivating/ arrogant but I've always considered a career switch since I have a zero sense of belonging in this field and always felt the grind wasn't rewarding enough-one can only sustain as long as they're MAD obsessed with this profession, is a workaholic and has enough emotional and financial support from family. I wanna stop being delulu about trying to reach my clinical rank goal and just wake up to reality. Cuz the last time I was grinding it was just cuz I was a simple sheep in herd who didn’t explore any other option(and just went with what society expected from me) AND AM regretting till date.

My Rahu MD started when I was about 16 years old - when I was required to prepare for medical entrance(yea the classic academic weapon who thinks she can ace medicine just cuz everyone expects her to and didn’t know the consequences)

By the time Ra-Ra ended I found myself in med school- one in which I wasn’t satisfied at all and I felt I deserved better. Wasn’t satisfied with my result, so gave up on counselling, only to find my friends(who ranked lower than me) betray me and upgrade to my dream state college. I felt that I had extremely high ambitions, and upon failing to reach them I completely detach and lose sight of life, try to focus on other aspects of life like friends and family and end up getting betrayed by them ALL THE WHILE failing to claim reward of my already deserving results. Not to mention I had an impending desire to find my college friend group, which left me being super nice& vulnerable to people leaving me with a selected group who I always clung onto. Lockdown made me work on myself and get a decent glow up. [Btw by the time I cracked the entrance I looked like a disaster perhaps from depression and hyper eating disorder ig and lockdown fixed that]

Jupiter AD- filled me with immense pride of my knowledge and completely content with limited academics so I could divert myself to other fields leaving my field completely ignored. Example- politics, history deep dive, philosophy the MOST. One day before exam you’d catch me extremely obsessed with Nietzsche philosophy videos AND right after the result you’d find me binging some kdrama/ kpop obsession. Somehow passed exams with mediocre results.

Saturn AD- here comes the breakdown- I finally upgrade from mediocre exam results to a failure STREAK. Lost the friend group I clung onto(cuz yea I somehow cut myself and they never put the effort back). Had a really tough time preparing for re exams and somehow Shanidev felt I deserved to pass🙏- this was also the first time I bawled my eyes out after an exam - first time in my life. Easily one of the toughest and loneliest times of my life, in fact so lonely that atp any positive result is just a relief, not an achievement. Anyway that was the time I TRULY understood what detachment meant. Somehow kept grinding to finish off the final year and missed distinction in a subject by ONE mark. ONE mark. Later-
My internship was mixed: had to work extra hard, never got help or generosity from anyone. Had multiple fights with colleagues cuz I get triggered immensely when others leave their work on me to chill- all in all it wasn’t a very relaxing ride, but not bad either thanks to the new makeshift friend group who approached me during the worst time of my life. Went on the first trip of my life as well- but turned maybe even there I just learnt to detach from my friends lol. Tried to seek residency in foreign countries, aced English test upon 2nd attempt but somehow the route closed there as the job situation was looking bad in the country I wanted to leave India for. Fast forward
Jointed PG coaching cuz I GOTTA study SOMETHiNG. Overall turned out to be of no use, couldn’t keep up with the pace and often walked out when I didn’t like the way any teacher taught. Then I find myself caged at home toiling with syllabus. Reading random things but everything staying all over the place. ALSO yelled at my parents and expressed my frustration against the toxic environment for the first time in my life (I’ve always been pretty timid and passive aggressive)

Mercury AD- gave my first mock test and realised I wasted my drop year third attempt of PG exam and my rank was 34k. After multiple failures, detachments, seeing others move forward with their lives and grow smoothly I knew there had to be something wrong. Divine intervention(I can’t speak details of) I’m right here exploring astrology and fulfilling my curiosity. Got about 2 vague readings and I’m still confused and hopeless regarding life. I’ll still trying to study and crack the exam btw.

I have no idea if I’m doing it to validate my struggles or find a pivot to shift my approach in life. Thanks for reading this and making it till here. Almost everyone I came across kept saying life gets better maybe after. 2028 or 2034 etc but the pivot point- quarter life def left me devastated. I’m constantly reminding myself that there’s just NO END to struggles. Lastly -
Btw not a single friend I made during this MD lasted lmao.
Har Har Mahadev 🙏 only he has helped me stay strong throughout all this. Perhaps if it weren’t cuz of Rahu I would never have such a spiritual awakening. If anyone of you is going through this I completely empathise and know that all you have to do is survive and keep moving forward. Life can be unfair but you can get through it. Know that you’re not alone- the sky 🌌 is vast and stars are infinite ♾️