u/Any-Locksmith-4925

Essentially I've "struggled with seeing a future" for most of my life and never expected to live this long. I currently have approx $150k in savings and I've only just started investing a little bit. I've always felt like I needed to hold on to my money so I can have the freedom of travelling and doing everything and anything I want to do before I die and couldn't see the point in investing in the future because I couldn't (still can't) really see one.

Except - somewhat recently my mindset's changed and now I feel like I should start investing properly because I've realised after travelling a fair bit that I don't actually need very much money to do the things I want to do and if one day I'm not suicidal then I'll be better off.

Is anyone else in a similar position? Or has been in a similar position? What did you do? Did you also feel guilty about not investing sooner and/or find/found it hard to start?

When I try find other people that also have my mental illness or similar (BPD) they're often the opposite of me when it comes to spending vs saving, etc.

I've just ordered another 30ml bottle because it's on sale and realised I've been using my current bottle (which still isn't finished) for over 10months??

I spot treat around my mouth most days 1-4x per day (usually at least twice a day) and my melasma has improved significantly.

Is it lasting this long for everyone else or am I using less than normal??