u/AnyBat5694

TW: baby loss

I hope it's okay to post this in this community.

Here's my story. In December I got pregnant with my second baby (first pregnancy was healthy).

I was 4 months along when we decided to buy a laser cutting machine to start a small business.

We installed it on the third floor in our house, in a closed room. We didn't buy the extractor right away and started doing some tests with MDF. It was primarily my husband who worked on the machine. I went up about 5-7 times total and was present while cutting around 15-20 min at a time. The windows were always open.

We didn't cut every day. Maybe around 2-3 times a week. There was some smell in the rest of the house, but not significant. I didn't have any symptoms of eyes of throat irritation.

Exactly one month after my water suddenly broke at 5 months pregnant. Our baby didn't survive.

The doctors didn't find any reason why it happened and I kind of blame laser cutting. I kind of never imagined it could be harmful.

I guess I just want to hear from people who also had similar exposure or know of someone who's had a successful pregnancy in a similar situation.

Please, dont judge me, it's already hard enough

I lost my baby girl at 22.5 weeks 6 weeks ago. It was my second pregnancy. From the first one I have a healthy 2.8 years old boy.

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I miss my baby everyday, and think about her all the time 💔 I really want to have another baby here with me, and give my firstborn a sibling. Also, I've always wanted a 3 years gap between my kids (just the one that I was supposed to have with my baby girl), and I don't want to wait long to start ttc again.

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My question is does being pregnant again help you feel better? I'm sure, a new baby will never replace the one you've lost, but I'm wondering if a new baby brings the joy that's helping your heart heal?

I'd like to hear from ppeople still expecting and those who've already had their rainbow babies ♥️

I lost my daughter Alexandra at 22.5 weeks on May 6th.

At 17 weeks I went for an ultrasound and OB check, everything looked fine. On the first anatomy scan at 14 weeks my servix was measuring 38mm, the pregnancy was considered low risk. My first pregnancy was also low risk. Everything perfect, I was induced at 39+2 weeks, ended up having an emergency c section and I have a healthy almost 3 years old boy.

I didn't make it to my second anatomy scan with this pregnancy that was scheduled for May 7th.

On the days previous to the loss I was perfectly fine, no spotting, no bleeding, no pain, no contractions. I didn't do anything weird, no heavy exercise, no heavy lifting, no sex, just went on short walks. The only thing I had was constantly wet underwear and white discharge that had no smell and wasn't much at all so I didn't think anything was not right. It turned up being the amniotic fluid leaking and parts of the mucus plug coming out 😮‍💨

I woke up as usual on May 5th, had breakfast, did some coloring with my son, went upstairs to change to go grocery shopping. I was constantly tired so I sat down for a minute and when I got up I felt a little bit of warm liquid coming out. I thought it was blood and immediately went to the bathroom. The liquid was transparent and had no smell. I started peeing and when I was finished I kept leaking a little I thought it was weird. I got up and it's when my water broke completely.

We went to see my OB and she confirmed I had no amniotic fluid and the servix was shorter than it should've been, I forgot what it measured. The baby girl was ok, with a strong heartbeat and moving a lot. Basically she said there was no was of saving the baby. She was too small. I felt so crushed, I just couldn't believe this was happening. An hour ago I was going grocery shopping and instead I had to be induced to give birth to my beautiful baby girl just for her to die. I was induced with oxytocin and had my baby 12 hours later. She went to be with Jesus shortly after birth.

The did all the tests and the placental pathology and everything came back fine. There was no infection in the urine nor in the uterus, the placenta was perfect. My doctor says there could have been an infection in the membranes or in the amniotic fluid itself, but I understand there's no way of knowing that. Also they don't think it was an insufficient servix, because I didn't have it with my first pregnancy and also I didn't have any contractions until about 3 hours after being induced with oxitocin.

It's so devastating not knowing what really happened and why. And the worst part is that even knowing that wouldn't bring my daughter back. She was so loved, she still is and always will be 💔 I know she's in the loving arms of Jesus, but it hurts so much not having her here with us.

It really is the worst pain ever and you never really understand it until it happens to you. My husband is very supportive, but I feel so alone in this. I miss my baby so much.

Has anyone experienced something similar? Have you been able to have a successful pregnancy after? I'd really like to connect with people who's also going through loss to walk this road together.

I lost my daughter Alexandra at 22.5 weeks on May 6th.

At 17 weeks I went for an ultrasound and OB check, everything looked fine. On the first anatomy scan at 14 weeks my servix was measuring 38mm, the pregnancy was considered low risk. My first pregnancy was also low risk. Everything perfect, I was induced at 39+2 weeks, ended up having an emergency c section and I have a healthy almost 3 years old boy.

I didn't make it to my second anatomy scan with this pregnancy that was scheduled for May 7th.

On the days previous to the loss I was perfectly fine, no spotting, no bleeding, no pain, no contractions. I didn't do anything weird, no heavy exercise, no heavy lifting, no sex, just went on short walks. The only thing I had was constantly wet underwear and white discharge that had no smell and wasn't much at all so I didn't think anything was not right. It turned up being the amniotic fluid leaking and parts of the mucus plug coming out 😮‍💨

I woke up as usual on May 5th, had breakfast, did some coloring with my son, went upstairs to change to go grocery shopping. I was constantly tired so I sat down for a minute and when I got up I felt a little bit of warm liquid coming out. I thought it was blood and immediately went to the bathroom. The liquid was transparent and had no smell. I started peeing and when I was finished I kept leaking a little I thought it was weird. I got up and it's when my water broke completely.

We went to see my OB and she confirmed I had no amniotic fluid and the servix was shorter than it should've been, I forgot what it measured. The baby girl was ok, with a strong heartbeat and moving a lot. Basically she said there was no was of saving the baby. She was too small. I felt so crushed, I just couldn't believe this was happening. An hour ago I was going grocery shopping and instead I had to be induced to give birth to my beautiful baby girl just for her to die. I was induced with oxytocin and had my baby 12 hours later. She went to be with Jesus shortly after birth.

The did all the tests and the placental pathology and everything came back fine. There was no infection in the urine nor in the uterus, the placenta was perfect. My doctor says there could have been an infection in the membranes or in the amniotic fluid itself, but I understand there's no way of knowing that. Also they don't think it was an insufficient servix, because I didn't have it with my first pregnancy and also I didn't have any contractions until about 3 hours after being induced with oxitocin.

It's so devastating not knowing what really happened and why. And the worst part is that even knowing that wouldn't bring my daughter back. She was so loved, she still is and always will be 💔 I know she's in the loving arms of Jesus, but it hurts so much not having her here with us.

It really is the worst pain ever and you never really understand it until it happens to you. My husband is very supportive, but I feel so alone in this. I miss my baby so much.

Has anyone experienced something similar? Have you been able to have a successful pregnancy after? I'd really like to connect with people who's also going through loss to walk this road together.