28F married to college love 29M but also in love with common friend 29M. I’m polyamorous apparently. I’m confused over what to do ?
So long story short, got married 5 years ago to my college love , whom I still love and we are in an open relationship.. After marriage , we used to hang out with his friends very often , whom I used to know from college days itself . So we all became close eventually as families. Then my husband went to abroad for higher studies last year , I was alone and fighting depression. Our common friends took care of me during that year and always made sure I’m okay . One of the friends got closer to me during this time as we bonded over therapy and depression phase. Random day I was talking about open relationship and stuff , few days later he made a move and I resisted initially. Later I agreed and we started hooking up but we promised to keep it only sexual. Fast forward one year , he is madly in love with me and so do I . But I also love my husband , which my friend knows as well. I feel like my life would have better with this guy than my husband, but I’m worried about hurting my husband as I made a promise . So I’m stuck here.. any advice ?