u/ApplicationAlive1645

So i had a friend who was a guy. I liked him since the start but I never overstepped kept it till friendship only. Then he started calling me out alone I avoided. Then he started talking everyday I tried to limit it but after my exams I had no work so I somehow got used to talking to him. He used to flirt but I just left it I mean I know I should have stopped but I was used to him and he was the closest I had. He knew my friendship history was bad. But after doing all this for 6 months he just bailed abandoned me. Stopped talking. I thought it was with everyone but I realised it was only me and he said "I have an exam coming up" so I left it. But everyone knew when was his exam and has plans after his exams and there I am knowing nothing about him.

Then finally that day I confronted him coz I was just done I needed answers and he said "I can't be close to someone for a longer time" I was like excuse me why did you even come close to me then??!?!( While his other friends where there from a year or a best friend from childhood)

I tried talking to him we went out and then one day his friend got sick and that friend was a friend of my roommate but my roommate was sleeping so she called me. It was emergency so i just left. I didn't tell him coz I'm not his gf to tell him everything and her problem was a pcod/pcos so I felt we girls can handle it better(I'm sorry if I'm wrong). Well after that my roommate came and everything was fine. After that they told him and he just got angry saying why didn't I tell him.( I kind of thought that he might get angry but anyway). I didn't talk to him for 15 days thinking he will talk but guess what HE DIDNT😭

I had to talk to him. I tried being normal but after a month I couldn't I was frustrated with this one sided thing and then the last time I talked to him He replied to my story asking how my health is( my story was related to me being sick) and I fought because sorry I have feelings duh?!? You can trust expect me to be normal after you stop talking to me why do you ask how my health is if you don't care in general?

And then I focused on my placements and tried my best not to talk. All I wanted was to him get placed and he did. I had to try for one last time also coz my roommate said he wants to talk but he is not talking so I thought ok fine let's just end it and guess what he said now college is ending you will be somewhere else and I will be somewhere else why to worry you will be fine after college ends.EXCUSE ME?

after this he went and told this to one of our common friend that she contacted man I mean bruh what?

Then after our exams he had the audacity to text me saying Im leaving this city in few days all the best for your future. I mean wow you do all this and then you say this. Like???

And I just see him having friends colleagues stories of mutuals of them going out and I'm there like I WANT REVENGE. How can I go through all this and he gets to live happily?

I'm not going to do anything and yes I know I shouldn't be wanting revenge or wishing bad for someone( I really don't want something bad to happen to him but I want him to know how I felt not less not more EXACTLY HOW I FELT)

I am an empath and I don't wish people bad but this is not fair to me. I want to just move on now and be happy without this affecting me.

So i had a friend who was a guy. I liked him since the start but I never overstepped kept it till friendship only. Then he started calling me out alone I avoided. Then he started talking everyday I tried to limit it but after my exams I had no work so I somehow got used to talking to him. He used to flirt but I just left it I mean I know I should have stopped but I was used to him and he was the closest I had. He knew my friendship history was bad. But after doing all this for 6 months he just bailed abandoned me. Stopped talking. I thought it was with everyone but I realised it was only me and he said "I have an exam coming up" so I left it. But everyone knew when was his exam and has plans after his exams and there I am knowing nothing about him.

Then finally that day I confronted him coz I was just done I needed answers and he said "I can't be close to someone for a longer time" I was like excuse me why did you even come close to me then??!?!( While his other friends where there from a year or a best friend from childhood)

I tried talking to him we went out and then one day his friend got sick and that friend was a friend of my roommate but my roommate was sleeping so she called me. It was emergency so i just left. I didn't tell him coz I'm not his gf to tell him everything and her problem was a pcod/pcos so I felt we girls can handle it better(I'm sorry if I'm wrong). Well after that my roommate came and everything was fine. After that they told him and he just got angry saying why didn't I tell him.( I kind of thought that he might get angry but anyway). I didn't talk to him for 15 days thinking he will talk but guess what HE DIDNT😭

I had to talk to him. I tried being normal but after a month I couldn't I was frustrated with this one sided thing and then the last time I talked to him He replied to my story asking how my health is( my story was related to me being sick) and I fought because sorry I have feelings duh?!? You can trust expect me to be normal after you stop talking to me why do you ask how my health is if you don't care in general?

And then I focused on my placements and tried my best not to talk. All I wanted was to him get placed and he did. I had to try for one last time also coz my roommate said he wants to talk but he is not talking so I thought ok fine let's just end it and guess what he said now college is ending you will be somewhere else and I will be somewhere else why to worry you will be fine after college ends.EXCUSE ME?

after this he went and told this to one of our common friend that she contacted man I mean bruh what?

Then after our exams he had the audacity to text me saying Im leaving this city in few days all the best for your future. I mean wow you do all this and then you say this. Like???

And I just see him having friends colleagues stories of mutuals of them going out and I'm there like I WANT REVENGE. How can I go through all this and he gets to live happily?

I'm not going to do anything and yes I know I shouldn't be wanting revenge or wishing bad for someone( I really don't want something bad to happen to him but I want him to know how I felt not less not more EXACTLY HOW I FELT)

I am an empath and I don't wish people bad but this is not fair to me. I want to just move on now and be happy without this affecting me.

I'm in my 20s about to start my job in few days and honestly I don't know what to do. I have been walking to keep physical activity, yesterday I walked a little too much and also had a pizza ( just some normal things which I always do). I completed my mba which is pretty hectic with odd hours of sleep and stress. My observed cause for this is stress mainly. But today I didn't take any stress. I noticed when I stop drinking milk i have it and when I start again I have it. I did drink a few months ago(it was my 2nd time) because I was done stopping things I love(cycling, driving, swimming, not staying near a fire, and gym(i still badly want to go to gym)).I take brevipil 75 and guess what I didn't miss my medication either. I have been watching TV for 2 days (people say electronics cause this) but I still am trying to fix my Sleep schedule but it's tough. Honestly I'm done I don't know how to continue and how I will continue with my life ahead because adulting is tough. Also I had gone through some trauma (friendship breakups) so I have some anxiety like I get anxious and stress a little fast. Also my parents and extended family are tough to deal with. The constant disturbance and fights and all just.. I don't know I like it on my own because it's peaceful. Honestly I just need someone who is as understanding as me. I have always been understanding towards all my friends and yet I don't want to share this with anyone because they don't know how it feels and they might think I'm weak so I don't want to lose friends over this. I always get it during sleep at midnights but last year it happened during day time because of the stress improper diet. I thought it was the end of my little independence that I have but yet I continued. Last year I was in a hostel (i always wanted a hostel life because life around people outside my home feels fun and less stressful. My one parent keeps on telling medications on not needed but I don't listen coz I can't take any more risk although I want to stop it but I won't.

Also I feel like nobody will marry me. Idk what to do Sorry for a random rant but I would love this community's inputs.