u/Apprehensive_Gap867

Struggling with regret/scrupulosity. I am really struggling with sins I’ve committed in my past. I had a radical reversion to my faith in 2020, but before that from the ages of 16-22 I was heavy into drinking, partying, and hooking up. I looked for validation from boys/men. I got sober in my early twenties and since then I truly feel brand new. I recently went through very old Facebook messenger conversations and I don’t even recognize the young girl in those messages. I grieve my youth and the missed opportunities, and I regret so much my sexual sins. I just don’t understand why I was so preoccupied with partying and hooking up when I could’ve been having a blast with friends, being sober, and making meaningful relationships. What was I escaping from? I wish I could go back and do it over. I would’ve done so many things differently and I wouldn’t have been as damaged. I’m now a married mother, I am so blessed with my incredible husband who does not hold my past against me and truly cherishes and adores me. I don’t feel worthy of him or of our baby sometimes. I have confessed all of these sins and I do believe in the Lord’s forgiveness.. but I don’t know how to forgive myself and move on. What is the Lord trying to show me through this? God bless you all.

Considering Letrozole.

Hi all! Ok so I am 19 months pp, I was anovulatory for the entire 12 months i breastfed. Since then, my cycles have become regular but my ovulation is not as robust as we need/want it to be for conception. My body has given me signs of this as I haven’t noticed as much CM, I’ve been having spotting 4 days before my period starts and my LH/estrogen is lower than ideal. I’m still ovulating- I had a full work up done with my OBGYN. Ultrasound showed a healthy 23mm follicle and free fluid (1-2 DPO), and 9mm uterine lining. No polyps or fibroids, both ovaries look good. AMH normal, thyroid normal, vitamin levels normal. Normal progesterone as well. I’ve been regulating my blood sugar, cooking from scratch, taking all the supplements, exercising, getting morning sunlight, doing all the lifestyle stuff to improve my health.
I am going back and forth between taking vitex for a few cycles or just jumping straight to letrozole. Vitex is an herb that works on the pituitary gland to improve hormone signaling to boost ovulation. It takes 2-3 cycles to work. Letrozole works immediately on the ovaries, yet from my understanding it’s a relatively gentle medication with some side effects but low risk.
Does anyone have any insight to share on this? Any experience with letrozole and things I should know? What would you all do? Thanks in advance💕🩵

Hi all! Ok so I am 19 months pp, I was anovulatory for the entire 12 months i breastfed. Since then, my cycles have become regular but my ovulation is not as robust as we need/want it to be for conception. I’ve been having spotting 4 days before my period starts and my LH/estrogen is lower than ideal. I’m still ovulating- I had a full work up done with my OBGYN. Ultrasound showed a healthy 23mm follicle and free fluid (1-2 DPO), and 9mm uterine lining. No polyps or fibroids, both ovaries look good. AMH normal, thyroid normal, vitamin levels normal. Normal progesterone as well. I’ve been regulating my blood sugar, cooking from scratch, exercising, getting morning sunlight, doing all the lifestyle stuff to improve my health.
I am going back and forth between taking vitex for a few cycles or just jumping straight to letrozole. Vitex is an herb that works on the pituitary gland to improve hormone signaling to boost ovulation. It takes 2-3 cycles to work. Letrozole works immediately on the ovaries, yet from my understanding it’s a relatively gentle medication with some side effects but low risk.
Does anyone have any insight to share on this? Any experience with letrozole and things I should know? What would you all do? Thanks in advance💕🩵

Hi friends! So I am 19 months pp and have been trying for, let’s say 14 months- meaning we have been open to life. But I was anovulatory from breastfeeding for 12 months. After weaning, I’ve only had a couple cycles shown as “ovulation confirmed” on Mira. So my body is still recalibrating. But we just finished the 7 cycle post weaning, still not pregnant.
I did go get a full work up done with a new OBGYN (I needed one anyway since we recently moved states). And everything looks good- ultrasound was at 1-2 DPO and showed healthy uterus and ovaries, 9mm lining, 23mm follicle and free fluid suggesting ovulation had recently occurred. My progesterone is still stabilizing but my 7 DPO serum was 7.6. Not great but not bad. I have had 4 days of spotting before my period starts for the last 3-4 cycles. But period coming on day 28 on the clock now.
All that to say, my doctor hasn’t gotten back to me yet and I’m about to start a new cycle. At our first appt, she mentioned we could try letrozole as a first step. I’m open to that as I know my luteal phase spotting is most likely due to weakened ovulation (despite having a good follicle), it just seems my body needs a little boost. I also have progesterone cream I’ll probably still use during luteal phase. I have been doing everything I can with lifestyle and diet changes over the last 7 months - walking, moderate weight lifting, supplements, fresh air, reducing stress, hydration, blood sugar balance and cooking everything from scratch. I also got my bloodwork done before meeting with my doctor just to rule out thyroid issues or vitamin deficiencies. All clear there.
Anyway, anyone have any insight or advice on the waiting? Or experiences with letrozole and/or progesterone cream? I let her know I started spotting yesterday but I haven’t heard back. I’m just kinda antsy to have a plan for this cycle… since things take a long time.