I think there’s something wrong with the way I feel attachment.
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Heyy... what’s up?? I'm a guy 20(M)
So the issue is whenever I get into a relationship, in the beginning I genuinely like the girl. I want the connection, the closeness, the bond all of it.
But after a couple months, something in me suddenly changes. I start feeling irritated, emotionally distant, or weirdly numb for no clear reason. It’s hard to explain properly. It’s not even that the other person did something wrong… it just starts feeling like my mind is quietly pulling away and I lose that emotional excitement.
And the worst part is that when the girl finally leaves or gives up on me, that’s when everything hits me.
The regret, the realization, the missing them. Suddenly I start remembering all the things I actually loved about them and wonder why I couldn’t feel it properly while I still had them.
It’s like I crave a genuine deep bond more than anything, but whenever I get close to one, something inside me sabotages it or stops feeling stable. I honestly don’t know if it’s fear, emotional immaturity, attachment issues, or just me never finding the “right” person.
I’m tired of feeling disconnected from my own emotions. I just want a bond that feels real and lasts longer than my confusing moods.