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In the car for 3 hours hated it wanted to go home. Just driving around aimlessly felt so painful im physically exhausted running on no sleep I thought we would hit some errands but they didn't want to do anything and left it up to me so we just drove What else would I do? I don't go out enough to know whats happening in town

I fell asleep as I was getting bored of being on my phone yet being outside and it was so unrestful, I woke up as we were getting home and I was so infuriated on the inside that I wasted 3 hours doing nothing so uncomfortably when I could have been home actually doing something

I feel miserable and unproductive being inside not leaving the house and I feel miserable and unproductive being outisde when it's not for anything

I hate this I have no life nothing to do no one to fucking hangout with thats a managable distance for it to be a regular thing I fucking hate this I have no friends

I wasn't even anxious as I was with a person I consider safe but the challenge is what agoraphobia has done to me i have nothing to me. its taken away all of the good things and mainly stopped me from developing any kind of a fucking life to return to

It feels like I was never ment to have a period

And eveyone is saying that periods are normal but it really to me such an absurd concept to be content with

My pain levels I say are normal because when I have pain relief there's no breakthrough pain but without it it's absolutely agonizing I cannot move, and I hate the cycle of feeling pain taking an ibuprofen so sometimes I just endure it

I think its crazy that you can't just control it biologically or stop it without pushback because of how much of an ordeal it is you'd think that would be an understandable request.

I wish I was never born with the ability to have it

If I tell myself as a rule, just don't talk to anybody, I think that'll make my social anxiety, much more manageable And whatever happens happens

Because if I go and I don't Have to talk to anybody , I can just focus on enjoying the actual show , and if somebody ends up talking to me , great.

And maybe I shouldn't care whatever people may or may not think around me if they notice i'm alone not talking to anybody , because I I shouldn't care about people's opinions of me whom I don't even know and will never see me again

I just want to see the show and say that i went, And don't want to miss out on things because the people who usually go with me don't want to do whatever it is I want to do.

that desire is growing stronger I'm happy at that

Idk It's how I felt when I first left the house alone. So this is a good sign.

30J? Sports bra recommendations?? And I'm venting

I only have 2 reg underwires right now and I sleep in them every night for support and its been fine. I got them 2? Months ago and when I feel that the elastic is giving way in the cups and it looks like im hanging them down with my weight I just switch out the bras.

Yesterday I worked out in one and today It feels like my other is breaking down already!!!, no support in the front part of the band, the cups and the underwater are suddenly sliding around and it feels like its inside of my ribs.

I was worried I slipped a rib because of how sore it is from pressing on an already sore rib, I'm to afraid to continue working out bc of it.