u/Ash_Allrounder_2010

I'm 16,Male,. My Mental Helath is cooked ,Due to my family(not my family,they adopted me )conflicts Daily hitting me blaming from the thing I'm not responsible for and Comparison, Everyday is the same ,I Hit Gym Daily but Now My Sleep Schedule Sucked up and My Mind is Not ready for studying, I have very big goal to achieve in studying but Everyone is getting ahead and I'm Behind , .

I Don't Have any Good Friends,No skills,No Hobbies,Not good at Any sports,Not good at communicating,have social anxiety,No Confidence

and mainly I have drawbacks too

Like I'm Ugly , I can't walk properly maintaining balance,I have lisping , Everywhere I go I'm in my Mind and not in present.

I thought it's the same for people my age but it's Not , Peoples my age are good at Sports,good at skills and hobbies and They Have Good Mental Health, Everything,And I'm just so different and Behind from them .

I really want to change My Life but don't know how ,

i really want to Glow up in Every Suspect Of My Life , Mentally, Physically,my Looks Evrything,Help me .

I'm In 11th Grande And I'm Preparing For Toughest Exam In India JEE Mains -Advanced But Today All My Confidence Broke Down Into Pieces,

Today Was Our First Test In our(online) Coaching , And I Scored Only 47/96 marks And Everyone Scored 80-90+ In the Test ,They Are Saying Test Level Is So Low Compared To real Exam ,And Here I'm score 47/96 I Can't Even Match The Level Of The Competition,Our Main Exam Will be 19 Months after from now And 14-16 lakhs students will give this exam And I Really Lost In Mind That I'm Not Enough The Competition will eat me

How can I improve?

When I was child they said I'm a brilliant Student But now here I'm can't score even below average marks, I'm addicted to phone ,have anxiety and no confidence,Not good at any sports Nothin..

but now How can I improve my academics I can give up my 19 months of social life , everything, everything, relationships , I Want To Be No.1 But How ?

I'm In 11th Grande And I'm Preparing For Toughest Exam In India JEE Mains -Advanced But Today All My Confidence Broke Down Into Pieces,

Today Was Our First Test In our(online) Coaching , And I Scored Only 47/96 marks And Everyone Scored 80-90+ In the Test ,They Are Saying Test Level Is So Low Compared To real Exam ,And Here I'm score 47/96 I Can't Even Match The Level Of The Competition,Our Main Exam Will be 19 Months after from now And 14-16 lakhs students will give this exam And I Really Lost In Mind That I'm Not Enough The Competition will eat me

How can I improve?

When I was child they said I'm a brilliant Student But now here I'm can't score even below average marks, I'm addicted to phone ,have anxiety and no confidence,Not good at any sports Nothin..

but now How can I improve my academics I can give up my 19 months of social life , everything, everything, relationships , I Want To Be No.1 But How ?

I don't know what is happening with my Life ,I don't know how the day's are passing.? I have No Skills And No social Life ,No Confidence and Even I Don't know how I'm spending my Days?

I thought these are Summer Holidays So I will glow up but I'm so Lost I'm Not good at Sports Just Hitting The Gym nothing else , And Not That Good at Academics And My Mental Health Is Cooked My sleep Is Good But nowadays I'm sleeping from 4am to 11am-12 pm I just can't sleep early idk why ,

I really Want To Glow Up

I feel Others Are Getting ahead, There is my Bestfriend (17M) Who Is Good at Sports,He Is Handsome,he has good communication skills he Is Good at Academics and he have amazing hobbies but Here I'm Lying In My Bed Only Hitting gym and Nothing ,

How can I Change My Life ??

What can I do to even get to his level?

and The thing is I don't have any support ,my family is toxic and drunk , that's Is Another Thing,But how can I completely Change?