Comorbidity and overlapping? Questioning
I am diagnosed with ADHD OCD "autistic traits" and I am somewhat interested in getting a re evaluation, just in case. I wanted to talk about some things here, though. I've for a long time sort of had a suspicion that I could possibly be autistic due to my life experiences. I keep going back and fourth. 17f I just want to be in the clear about things. What raises the most questions for me is the way I socialize and my lack of adaptability. Also just in general feeling incompetent with life but yk. Mental illnes.
So as a little kid as far as Ik I didn't have any kind of speech impairment or something too concerning cause I feel like they would have caught on to that. In the pictures I have of me as a little kid I was always smiling too. The only symptoms from childhood I distinctively remember is being hypersensitive. Hating the feeling of showering, my clothes, foods making me gag etc. I also remember getting excluded or picked on at kindergarten, and feeling stressed out there in general.
I refused to sleep alone till I was 11, while also being very stubborn about doing things the way I did and being very independent.
In primary school I had this female friend who in a way parented me and I was very codependent on. I didn't feel like the other kids liked me at all and I was described as being a "dreamer" by teachers.
Going to middle school was extremely hard for me and I started to develope some severe mental health issues including having my first OCD episode.
I do not have very rigid routines that aren't tied to OCD (which does not match with autism) but I handle change very poorly.
Usually some kind of change has happened at the same time that my major OCD episodes have started. Like while just going on a trip and having to be in different settings. Or changing schools.
I think I can read peoples emotions and faces pretty well, but until just recently I have hardly been succesful at initiating friendships. The childhood bestfriends I had sort of adopted me and we were very very close but I didn't have other friends. So that maybe made it hard for me to initiate friendships cause I was used to that kinda thing?
Nowadays I've forced myself to get out of my bubble and figured out how to initiate a conversation and with who. I have had some people completely ghost me though, but I feel like it mightve been cause I could come off as very suffocating with my clingyness. I have a hard time being friends with multiple people if all are present cause I just have it hard trying to engage with both at the same time.
Sorry I kind of lost the plot and just kept rambling.