u/Automatic_28

I’ve started to hate wearing a hijab in public lately like before I didn’t really care but I can’t stand it now.
It’s not the Fabric I mind. I actually like buying new hijabs and trying out different brands but I hate the judgment and stares that come with it. Wallah everyone thinks they know you all of a sudden. For example a while ago I was at a gas station and this white guy randomly flipped me off and my friend who is also a hijabi twice. I was so upset I said I hope he crushes his truck and I might have swore at him… I hate how people think we should just maintain calm like noooo. Idk even know where I got the confidence from I’m not a confrontational person usually. Anyways I don’t want to take my hijab off or anything but i just wish people could let us be bro💔

I’ve started to hate wearing a hijab in public lately like before I didn’t really care but I can’t stand it now.
It’s not the Fabric I mind. I actually like buying new hijabs and trying out different brands but I hate the judgment and stares that come with it. Wallah everyone thinks they know you all of a sudden. For example a while ago I was at a gas station and this white guy randomly flipped me off and my friend who is also a hijabi twice. I was so upset I said I hope he crushes his truck and I might have swore at him… I hate how people think we should just maintain calm like noooo. Idk even know where I got the confidence from I’m not a confrontational person usually. Anyways I don’t want to take my hijab off or anything but i just wish people could let us be bro💔

Talking stages can feel exciting but also so draining. It’s like I’m waiting for them to slip up. For example I was talking to this guy we’re both very young and 20 and 21; he gave me a compliment and I felt so grossed out. He called me sexy and when I told him not to refer to me as that but I guess it hurt his feelings or something cuz he basically called me entitled. Words like sexy, fine and other terms shouldn’t even be in a guys vocab unless he’s looking for something Casual.

I might be losing faith in Islam and the Whole concept of God. I grew up in very religious hold and I used to be religious as well a couple of years ago and I’m not sure if I want it back or not. Sometimes I just look at some of the things believers are supposed to take as universal truth and I’m like are we fr? There’s too many things I’ve questioned over the time and I just let it go because there’s simply some things I think humans can’t answer or if they make an attempt to answer it just doesn’t seem to make any sense.

For starters the age of Aisha. So it’s narrated she was 9 when she had married the prophet who was in his 50s and this is not considered to be immoral because this was normal for Arabia at this time but there’s also Hadith that states children should be thought to pray at 9 and be obligated to do so at 10. If at that age they’re considered to be children and treated at such how can they be ready for marriage? I understand that puberty was the key threshold for considering marriage but it’s still wild considering the power imbalance and physical puberty. With this in mind I’ve heard People say that Islam is a complete never changing religion then would marrying a 9 year old be acceptable today? I think anyone normal would say no because times have changed but then that would mean religion evolves with interpretation over time regarding human morality. It feels very dependent on historical context and the progression of Morality.

Also the idea of burning in hell forever. With people who committed undeniable evil like murder, sexual violence and pedophilia I understand but for the average person who maybe falls short at times because we’re all human yk. What do you mean people will be In hell for infinity for things they did in a finite life.
I feel an immense amount of guilt when I question. I think I’m gonna need a certain amount of religious cognitive dissonance like before in order to continue my life as a believer. I was happier anyways.