u/Avocado435

I'm having major surgery tomorrow and I can't stop thinking about what the nurses will think of my scars. I will be unable to care for myself for a while so the nurses will see everything.

I know nurses see lots of things so I shouldn't be worried, but I'm still nervous. And I also have this irrational fear they will cancel my surgery cause of them (my most recent are just over a month old, no infection or anything). Realistically, I know it will be fine but I can't stop overthinking it. Ahh it's stressing me out so much idek what to do.

Does anyone have any experiences with SH scars going into surgery? I'm feeling super alone and scared right now.

I have my T4-L2 surgery tomorrow and just got my period. Is there anything I should expect with this?

I'm guessing the nurses will have to help me with it. I would love to know in advance so I know what to expect.

Most of the time I'm sex repulsed, only rarely do I want to engage in sexual activity. When I do want sex I return to being sex repulsed immediately after orgasming.

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I've never had a "crush" and there is no specific person I've ever wanted to have sex with, just a general feeling of wanting it occasionally. This would be with any gender.

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My current working theory is Grey-Bisexual. What is confusing me though is the term "sexual attraction". From my understanding, sexual attraction has to be towards a specific person, but for me it's always a general feeling (rarely) and never towards a specific person.

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Any thoughts on this are appreciated.

I'm getting T4-L2 in a month. What type of mobility constrictions should I expect?

Also what time frame should I expect to be able to do things again?

Any advice or personal experiences welcome.