u/BLaisianArt2

I still remember last a night last fall at a bar happy and excited for a new friend and adventures we could have then winter came and took me but that memory stayed. It’s almost fall again but I won’t be here by the time it arrives, and that door will stay shut I accept that and my place in why it must. I had my door open but I forgot to put away the laundry. You should’ve never saw that mess.
Laughing with you felt like running with wind pushing us forward we flowed well, but my body was too light a gust of wind took me and u saw a glimpse of a storm I forgot I was running from. So I remember fall as a reason to stand. I wasn’t looking for a “girlfriend” or a “wife” but we were good friends for a bit, I heard “adventure” but time didn’t line up and I chased my tail, when I like someone’s shine I get excited about lil outings a golden retriever never retrieved and left in the street I became a stray for while and you were afraid I’d bite. I’m going on my own adventures now and I know you will too, hope you have fun and not over working and things are better w your mom. If one day our paths cross I wonder would we sit and share those new stories or just pass. Probably the latter always did have a hard time looking at your eyes.
Thanks for reminding me I still have my own warmth I love fall especially October but I hate how the cold grips my bones, I’m excited to see what Halloween is like overseas.

Thank you moonflower, I hope you write all the stories you love

Iv met a hello kitty girl and Iv a met a Garfield lover girl I say choose your self first, chimp up before, you chimp out love and understanding standing can not be taught or learned through hate and ego alone. There is suffering as well and who you choose to lean on or let lean on you.

🦧Love is not trivial it is essential for learning understanding📒***, passion***🎨 & forgiveness🫂
Have love for your friends, family, strangers,
And most importantly your self🦧 I will not loose my self
In pursuit of love or acceptance I will become it, in the way it may glow as naturally as light on dew of a leaf in the rainforest.

hold on to your whimsy monkes💛

Some nights, a ghost of you stands behind me with one hand on my shoulder and another around my neck.

Other nights it rips out my throat, or sometimes holds me gently with a cold warmth.

I hope the memory of me doesn’t haunt you.

Sorry about December the little time I had with you really did make me want to Live and do better for the future, you are the fist and last, you made colors more vibrant and learning things to share fun.

I felt worth something more for a little, little things still remind me of you almost everyday, when I see something beautiful I take pictures wishing I could share them with you.

Wish I didn’t get sick neglecting my self for a week and scaring you, saying those terrible lies.
Your honesty the Most Beautiful person/woman to me, I’m disappointed in my self deeper than words can say that I wasn’t in my right mind when it counted I was careless.

I miss the way you’d gently correct my typos I really wish I got to read your writings… there was more I could’ve learned with you about you & with you.

I’ll learn to do better for myself & wish you nothing but the best in life, I was lucky to live a little of it with you, it ment a more than you’ll know.

I’ll be leaving again soon, I’d like to reach out before but i feel broken and wouldn’t ask you to cut your hands on the pieces. I’ll become more of a person than an idea but i don’t know when I’ll come back here, currently stuck between what was and what I wanted.

Even if it makes me a fool I still love you.🐈‍⬛

Sorry about December the little time I had with you really did make me want to Live and do better for the future, you are the fist and last, you made colors more vibrant and learning things to share fun.

I felt worth something more for a little, little things still remind me of you almost everyday, when I see something beautiful I take pictures wishing I could share them with you.

Wish I didn’t get sick neglecting my self for a week and scaring you, saying those terrible lies.
Your honesty the Most Beautiful person/woman to me, I’m disappointed in my self deeper than words can say that I wasn’t in my right mind when it counted I was careless.

I’ll learn to do better for myself & wish you nothing but the best in life, I was lucky to live a little of it with you it ment a more than you’ll know.
I miss the way you’d gently correct my typos I really wish I got to read your writings… there was more I could’ve learned with you & about you.

even if it makes me a fool I still love you z.

I fell for you in fall it felt like spring a new start, but I lost my self in winter now it’s summer and I remember the plans we made the last one.

If only I could’ve told you those 3 words that night.
I will become better and hopefully one day you can see me again and we could laugh at the bar together just two silly nerds.

Regardless I’ll always hold love for you if ever you need me I’ll come running, miss you Z moon flower. 🌌

I remember October 2 days after I landed you asked me to a bar on the 3rd, I remember your smile but it’s been a while.

Do you remember October the first one we met it was Halloween party I didn’t know anybody, was standing in the kitchen drawing in my book.

You asked me to draw you I didn’t know where to look I remember your tattoo and the smell of cigarettes.

That sketch left me with a few regrets.

I remember October 2 days after I landed you asked to a bar on the 3rd, I remember your smile but it’s been a while.

Do you remember October the first one we met it was Halloween party I didn’t know anybody, was standing in the kitchen drawing in my book.

You asked me to draw you I didn’t know where to look I remember your tattoo and the smell of cigarettes.

That sketch left me with a few regrets.